Daris Whitfield

The real reason why I was so intrinsically upset is because I felt like I lost that last year with her because I became a shell of myself. I stopped talking to you. I stopped answering her calls. So I was like, I just want to be honest because it was so much too of like, I love that everyone's like, oh my God, you're so fun and sparky and whatever. I'm like, but that's not true. I'm not that.

The real reason why I was so intrinsically upset is because I felt like I lost that last year with her because I became a shell of myself. I stopped talking to you. I stopped answering her calls. So I was like, I just want to be honest because it was so much too of like, I love that everyone's like, oh my God, you're so fun and sparky and whatever. I'm like, but that's not true. I'm not that.

And I'm actually like, I overcompensate sometimes and I force myself in order to be fun and to power through things. Because that's like, I don't lay in bed and cry. But I want to be honest about why I keep pushing off producers, but why I don't want you to dive into my dating life. And the real reason why every time that you ask me in a confessional to share about Mimi, I start bawling, crying.

And I'm actually like, I overcompensate sometimes and I force myself in order to be fun and to power through things. Because that's like, I don't lay in bed and cry. But I want to be honest about why I keep pushing off producers, but why I don't want you to dive into my dating life. And the real reason why every time that you ask me in a confessional to share about Mimi, I start bawling, crying.

I want to be honest. But then being honest, like, fucked me over. So maybe I should just go back to giggling and laughing. Because that was the only time that everyone else felt... Well, because, again, weren't threatened by me.

I want to be honest. But then being honest, like, fucked me over. So maybe I should just go back to giggling and laughing. Because that was the only time that everyone else felt... Well, because, again, weren't threatened by me.

Well, but that also then, again, people then think because you try to cope in your way and be gregarious and outgoing and affable and friendly and all this stuff that when you get upset that there's something wrong with you, that someone's having a breakdown. And you get what I'm saying? Because you have to either be you have to either be in life sad all the time.

Well, but that also then, again, people then think because you try to cope in your way and be gregarious and outgoing and affable and friendly and all this stuff that when you get upset that there's something wrong with you, that someone's having a breakdown. And you get what I'm saying? Because you have to either be you have to either be in life sad all the time.

or happy all the time, I guess, right? Because if you show two, then it's like, oh, this person is fake then. Because, yeah, of course, like you said, some of it is just coping and putting on. We all do it in our own way. Like I told you, I might be able to compartmentalize it a little bit better than other folks, even including you. You do it better than I do.

or happy all the time, I guess, right? Because if you show two, then it's like, oh, this person is fake then. Because, yeah, of course, like you said, some of it is just coping and putting on. We all do it in our own way. Like I told you, I might be able to compartmentalize it a little bit better than other folks, even including you. You do it better than I do.

But, yeah, you've been through so much shit. And, you know, it's like you're not allowed to have – Fun or be flirty or just try to cope with it in that way. But then you're also not allowed to get upset when people hurt you either. So it's really a hard box.

But, yeah, you've been through so much shit. And, you know, it's like you're not allowed to have – Fun or be flirty or just try to cope with it in that way. But then you're also not allowed to get upset when people hurt you either. So it's really a hard box.

And then I'm penalized, penalized for when if I am. OK, well, let's just like I'm not going to. Well, one. one thing that I feel like I got penalized a lot with is, it's really hard. Like, I'm the type of person, I'm gonna avoid it. I've told everyone, I'm gonna avoid it. So if we get into a massive argument, I am not the first, like, in one hour, ready to talk to you.

And then I'm penalized, penalized for when if I am. OK, well, let's just like I'm not going to. Well, one. one thing that I feel like I got penalized a lot with is, it's really hard. Like, I'm the type of person, I'm gonna avoid it. I've told everyone, I'm gonna avoid it. So if we get into a massive argument, I am not the first, like, in one hour, ready to talk to you.

Which I hate, yeah.

Which I hate, yeah.

I'm just not. Maybe not even the next day. And I'm certainly not going to talk to you if you don't reach out to me, but you reach out to producers, and a producer says, well, so-and-so wants to film with you tomorrow to talk about her screaming at you in front of your brother. And I'm like... She can call, and look, and that's not, we are on a show. So that's not wrong of her, right?

I'm just not. Maybe not even the next day. And I'm certainly not going to talk to you if you don't reach out to me, but you reach out to producers, and a producer says, well, so-and-so wants to film with you tomorrow to talk about her screaming at you in front of your brother. And I'm like... She can call, and look, and that's not, we are on a show. So that's not wrong of her, right?

But it feels like, and this is where I mess up, it feels unnatural. I'm like, I actually got offended. So I would at least appreciate like a, you asked me first and then we're like, okay, look, let's, but then that's not a reality TV show, right? And then the audience get mad because they're like, oh, they made off off camera and then they have to make up.

But it feels like, and this is where I mess up, it feels unnatural. I'm like, I actually got offended. So I would at least appreciate like a, you asked me first and then we're like, okay, look, let's, but then that's not a reality TV show, right? And then the audience get mad because they're like, oh, they made off off camera and then they have to make up.