Dave Evans

the last 440 of the 26 miles.

And as I did that, this huge crowd stood and roared as I came along.

I was like, and like, well done, Dave.

You're done.

And as I neared the finish line, part of me wanted to stop.

And part of the loss was

Of years two, three, four, and five, you know, because don't get me wrong.

I'm now down to the grief that I carry.

There's a permanent thing I carry called grief, which is I befriended where it's a new relationship.

You know, Frisch, my new partner, soon to be a wife, wisely said, I'm really sorry I didn't get to meet Claudia, but I really look forward to getting to know her.

The three of us are going to have to spend a lot of time together, which is very insightful.

But

I missed that intensity.

There was something about that intense grief that was really alive.

I mean, you were alive.

But you got to let it go.

If I had tried to sustain that, if I had tried to stick with it, that would be very synthetic and everybody gets hurt.

So this goes back to befriending the longing.

Look,

The good news is you're never going to get there, which means if you're paying attention, it's going to stay interesting all the way, all the way down.