Dax

All this stuff isn't going on. So this had to happen. I'm sorry if you're a listener and you're just like, I don't want to hear about Next.js because I'm a big Vercel fanboy. I'm sorry because this is going to be a little different. Yeah, so Casey and I, my wife Casey of 15 years, have been on the precipice of... ending our relationship for a week. So we were separated.

All this stuff isn't going on. So this had to happen. I'm sorry if you're a listener and you're just like, I don't want to hear about Next.js because I'm a big Vercel fanboy. I'm sorry because this is going to be a little different. Yeah, so Casey and I, my wife Casey of 15 years, have been on the precipice of... ending our relationship for a week. So we were separated.

This is very, it's going to get very confusing. It's like the friends, uh, Ross and Rachel stuff. We were on a break and then we were separated and then we were maybe closer than ever. And then yesterday was very close to looking like it was over, over, over divorce over. And then today we're Once again, the best it's been. I can feel you right now.

This is very, it's going to get very confusing. It's like the friends, uh, Ross and Rachel stuff. We were on a break and then we were separated and then we were maybe closer than ever. And then yesterday was very close to looking like it was over, over, over divorce over. And then today we're Once again, the best it's been. I can feel you right now.

Just like you're so in the dark because we didn't, we haven't talked since yesterday. And yesterday was the, we haven't, we haven't talked since eight hours ago. I know. And eight hours ago was the worst it's been. Oh man. Okay. Maybe we don't want to spend that long on this.

Just like you're so in the dark because we didn't, we haven't talked since yesterday. And yesterday was the, we haven't, we haven't talked since eight hours ago. I know. And eight hours ago was the worst it's been. Oh man. Okay. Maybe we don't want to spend that long on this.

Maybe I can just kind of give you the rundown and then like, if there's something good that comes out of it and we can hit on it, but at least I've acknowledged it. Uh, yeah, basically I just, I hid from my wife. I just haven't been myself in some ways and like things that I was holding onto since like college. Yeah. I mean, I've, okay.

Maybe I can just kind of give you the rundown and then like, if there's something good that comes out of it and we can hit on it, but at least I've acknowledged it. Uh, yeah, basically I just, I hid from my wife. I just haven't been myself in some ways and like things that I was holding onto since like college. Yeah. I mean, I've, okay.

I played a video game in college that I failed out of college over and then hid that game from her subsequently a few times in our marriage and This last time, it's just whenever I get really stressed. Basically, when there's a lot of stress in my life, I fall back to this thing. And it's not a thing I felt I could share with her. And it was just rough. I hurt her a lot.

I played a video game in college that I failed out of college over and then hid that game from her subsequently a few times in our marriage and This last time, it's just whenever I get really stressed. Basically, when there's a lot of stress in my life, I fall back to this thing. And it's not a thing I felt I could share with her. And it was just rough. I hurt her a lot.

In the process, we've learned a lot about each other. I think in some ways, we've grown closer through all of it. And yeah, I'm really optimistic now. So... I was really optimistic a week ago and then we almost got divorced yesterday, but I'm really optimistic now. So I think things are better. We want to work through it. We want to do the work. We've got therapists.

In the process, we've learned a lot about each other. I think in some ways, we've grown closer through all of it. And yeah, I'm really optimistic now. So... I was really optimistic a week ago and then we almost got divorced yesterday, but I'm really optimistic now. So I think things are better. We want to work through it. We want to do the work. We've got therapists.

We've got all the things, the resources we need to figure out why we had these barriers between us. And I think we're going to make it. We want to work through it and we want to be together while we work through it. So we're not even really separated now. That's the progress. We're back together and I think we're on the right track. Okay, that's all.

We've got all the things, the resources we need to figure out why we had these barriers between us. And I think we're going to make it. We want to work through it and we want to be together while we work through it. So we're not even really separated now. That's the progress. We're back together and I think we're on the right track. Okay, that's all.

Yeah, because I think I realized the value is in acknowledging it and not just pretending for the rest of the podcast. Yeah, I know. So it's like, I don't need to go through the whole story. You guys don't need to hear about when I was 16. We don't have to go back to the beginning. It's fine.

Yeah, because I think I realized the value is in acknowledging it and not just pretending for the rest of the podcast. Yeah, I know. So it's like, I don't need to go through the whole story. You guys don't need to hear about when I was 16. We don't have to go back to the beginning. It's fine.

You mean like struggles, things that define you? Or what shit is it that you speak of? It's always so weird when I say a curse word because it just comes out of my mouth so unnaturally. What shit is it you speak of, Jax?

You mean like struggles, things that define you? Or what shit is it that you speak of? It's always so weird when I say a curse word because it just comes out of my mouth so unnaturally. What shit is it you speak of, Jax?

Yeah. And I think some of the things you've said to me, and then I had coffee with my brother this morning, I think all of the inputs I've gotten helps triangulate some thoughts. And it's some of what you're speaking to, like the big problem between me and Casey is, It does feel weird to do this on a podcast, I guess. Like, this is so... I don't know.

Yeah. And I think some of the things you've said to me, and then I had coffee with my brother this morning, I think all of the inputs I've gotten helps triangulate some thoughts. And it's some of what you're speaking to, like the big problem between me and Casey is, It does feel weird to do this on a podcast, I guess. Like, this is so... I don't know.