Dax

This is like... You're getting the real inside baseball. You're getting stuff that... I mean, Casey, you're probably... Casey's gonna listen to this, I'm sure. I hope I didn't misrepresent anything that we're talking about here. And she's open to me talking about this on the podcast, by the way. I guess, like...

This is like... You're getting the real inside baseball. You're getting stuff that... I mean, Casey, you're probably... Casey's gonna listen to this, I'm sure. I hope I didn't misrepresent anything that we're talking about here. And she's open to me talking about this on the podcast, by the way. I guess, like...

one of the things that I feel like broke today in our conversation that kind of like broke in the right way, like toward the right thing, uh, is related to some of the feedback you've given me that just realizing how much of my last decade with Casey, since we've had kids and things got stressful has been spent.

one of the things that I feel like broke today in our conversation that kind of like broke in the right way, like toward the right thing, uh, is related to some of the feedback you've given me that just realizing how much of my last decade with Casey, since we've had kids and things got stressful has been spent.

Like I've been twisting myself internally into this pretzel trying to just make her happy, but in like superficial ways, like ways that I think are just like the low hanging fruit ways to make her happy. Uh, Like, I've done so much to try and like... Just be, it's the hero. I mean, it's, I have this hero complex, the hero role or whatever hero child.

Like I've been twisting myself internally into this pretzel trying to just make her happy, but in like superficial ways, like ways that I think are just like the low hanging fruit ways to make her happy. Uh, Like, I've done so much to try and like... Just be, it's the hero. I mean, it's, I have this hero complex, the hero role or whatever hero child.

I don't know if anyone digs into psychology or has had someone tell them they have this. Well, we have it together. We are the hero children. Basically just like have to put all things together and make it look really good and feel really good for everybody on the surface level. I've just, I've had that.

I don't know if anyone digs into psychology or has had someone tell them they have this. Well, we have it together. We are the hero children. Basically just like have to put all things together and make it look really good and feel really good for everybody on the surface level. I've just, I've had that.

And it drives so many of my decisions with Casey and it to the point of being unhappy and not even really being self-aware enough to know how unhappy I was. some of that stuff. Yeah. It's the blaming myself. It's all of it. It's all very related. And Yeah, I mean, it wouldn't work. We both acknowledge this marriage doesn't make sense if we can't fix those things.

And it drives so many of my decisions with Casey and it to the point of being unhappy and not even really being self-aware enough to know how unhappy I was. some of that stuff. Yeah. It's the blaming myself. It's all of it. It's all very related. And Yeah, I mean, it wouldn't work. We both acknowledge this marriage doesn't make sense if we can't fix those things.

So it's still a long road of becoming these new people that we need to be to have a healthy relationship. We kind of both agree that just what we've had is no good. I mean, there was good. No good is the wrong term because there literally was a lot of good. We got two amazing little boys. There's plenty of good, but we want to start over. We want like...

So it's still a long road of becoming these new people that we need to be to have a healthy relationship. We kind of both agree that just what we've had is no good. I mean, there was good. No good is the wrong term because there literally was a lot of good. We got two amazing little boys. There's plenty of good, but we want to start over. We want like...

to just forget everything, all of the trauma and the pain and the things that we've created. We got to start on a new foundation. So anyway, that's me and my life and the crumbling walls around me. I just made that a song. It's not even a song. I don't know. I was uncomfortable. Okay. So I started singing.

to just forget everything, all of the trauma and the pain and the things that we've created. We got to start on a new foundation. So anyway, that's me and my life and the crumbling walls around me. I just made that a song. It's not even a song. I don't know. I was uncomfortable. Okay. So I started singing.

Like getting a dog or something? What do you mean?

Like getting a dog or something? What do you mean?

This is what we thought a week ago when this all went down. We thought, okay, we need to separate. We need to start new habits. And that separation will help us break out of the current cycle. We did some things. I mean, I've been sleeping in the basement.

This is what we thought a week ago when this all went down. We thought, okay, we need to separate. We need to start new habits. And that separation will help us break out of the current cycle. We did some things. I mean, I've been sleeping in the basement.

among other things uh we changed up our schedule we created like a more strict schedule that gives us both the time that we just didn't have because we sort of like both i think we both just kind of like we're the martyr and like trying to sacrifice ourselves to just make sure the other one was getting what they need but like we're both unhappy and we both feel like we never have time on the schedule that's like our time so we kind of like created that we did some things anyway we did some things

among other things uh we changed up our schedule we created like a more strict schedule that gives us both the time that we just didn't have because we sort of like both i think we both just kind of like we're the martyr and like trying to sacrifice ourselves to just make sure the other one was getting what they need but like we're both unhappy and we both feel like we never have time on the schedule that's like our time so we kind of like created that we did some things anyway we did some things