Deontay Kyle

Yeah.

Unless he's colorblind.

That nigga's a racist, probably.

He probably has an anti-blackness within him as well.

Because, yeah, bro, this just, yeah, no, hell no.

When we were both up for the same promotion and I got it, he cried and told me I shouldn't take it because it belonged to him.

What the fuck?

Yeah, yeah.

This is where we at.

He's told me I don't know how hard work and that he'll probably be fired soon and that anything I have is because of my upbringing.

My dad, my sister, and my best friend all think he's jealous of me, and honestly, I don't know what other explanation there is.

The worst part is I feel numb.

I'm not even angry anymore.

I'm indifferent.

I feel detached, exhausted, and like I'm staying because it's easier than leaving, especially since we work together.

I feel like I can't fully walk away until I get a new job and some distance, and that makes me feel weak.

Am I wrong for believing my dad?

and emotionally checking out?

Or is this what it feels like when you stay too long and your body knows before your brain does?

Much love, P. Everybody's right and you're right.