Derek Jones

So I ended up, I went and filed for divorce.

Well, that's, that's where I, that's where I really start to judge myself because.

then i'm trying to we're still living in the same house at the time um i'm trying to save up money to get my own place she says she's going to counseling shows me this counselor she's going to and everything you know she wishes she could take it back but she couldn't and she's trying to work on herself and then the the oldest starts getting you know starts having more seizure stuff

And everything.

And I just get, I got roped back in.

I stuck around.

I look back now and I know, I know why I did it.

I did it for the kids.

I didn't do it for her.

I did it for the kids, but I was still in such a shaded place that in me nowadays, I would have been a hundred miles down the road.

I don't care if I had a place to live or not.

I would have been living in my vehicle.

Like I said, when we first met, I was, you know, looking back, I was really depressed.

I never got out of that because of everything we had went through.

It's like, there was like this and this and then, and this and this and this, then the gun, then the, you know, we're like three and a half years in and four years in somewhere along those lines.

And we're, we're on thin ice.

I still have the paperwork turned into the court.

I ended up pulling it out.

And I tell her, like, hey, you've really got to show me that you're going to change.

Like, I don't want to have another set of my kids growing up in a broken family, but I can't stick around.