Devin

Like, where are you going with this?

So we just had like a decent evening, but I was like, well, why didn't we do this?

What's what's going on?

Like, are you not wanting to talk about, are you over?

I keep trying to read tea leaves, which is stupid.

Well, and so if I could just expand on that for a second, not that I'm great about anything, but like I do roughly nine out of 10 things in the house.

So like meals, cleaning, cooking, I do so much.

So I feel like

she probably thought, oh, my life would be much more difficult.

I might as well just live here and have them do everything.

But I feel like if I stand up and like pull back a little bit in what I'm doing, because I'm also overwhelmed with the amount of stuff I'm doing, it's completely unbalanced.

Then I always feel like she's going to leave.

So everything is kind of through the lens of like, if I stop doing this one nice thing I do, is she going to leave?

And I have to get like, regain my personal agency and take power back in my life.

But I'm just, I don't know.

I'm so like terrified now after years of dealing with this and this very acute, like recent situation.

I just don't even know how to start except saying like, Hey, one of those reasons that conversation from a few months ago, what are you doing?

Are you leaving?

And then I feel like it won't be resolved because she'll just kind of be like, well, well, you know, maybe I will.

I don't know.