Dorian Yates

But I got the idea that that was because of me, maybe.

So we never sat down and had a meal as a family.

Never.

So mom and dad were married, but they were leading kind of separate lives.

And I was in the middle somewhere, I guess.

Yeah, so if I didn't have that motivation, you know, maybe my dad would have taught me to be a car engineer or something.

I don't know.

It would be a whole different story, I'm sure.

Is it a sense or is it a premonition?

Is it, you know?

And you can edit these thoughts, I think.

Because I always had this bit of a fatalistic thing, maybe because my dad died so young.

So my dad died at 42.

My mom quickly met another guy that she wanted to marry, and he also died at 44.

So I saw two guys.

Okay, they both smoked 40 cigarettes a day, which was usual at that time, and don't exercise and drink alcohol.

Not much sunlight up there.

Not to get enough sleep and no sunlight, all these things.

but you know i've i've changed this over the years because now now i'm 63 going on 64 and uh appear to be very healthy i feel great and i'm looking forward to the future and i don't know none of us know right i'm just trying to live the best life that i can live day by day and uh

you know, be the best version of myself and have a good quality of life and appreciate every day at a time.