Dr. J. Budziszewski

lines of reasoning that i had forgotten how to follow through and uh it took about you know two years basically for god after i forgot to put my mind back together but i had to you know i had to commit he i thought oh well he is real then and i i said well i told him that he could have me so okay what now

I thought we were just processes.

We're just things happening.

Things happening.

Things happening.

You know, sometimes people say, oh, you mean a mechanism.

Well, I didn't even believe strongly enough at that point in cause and effect to be able to talk about mechanisms.

Right.

You know, but there's stuff here.

Something working itself out that we don't know what that thing is.

Something is working.

Even working itself out almost suggests that there's a beginning of the process, teleology, and an end to the process and a purpose.

And I couldn't have put it that way.

In fact, even my perception, when I would try to say I'm not really a person, I'm this or I'm that, there isn't any truth.

I realized that if all of that was true, then what I was saying couldn't be true.

Because truth didn't have any meaning anymore either.

If I was just a process that worked along and produced these thoughts, this is true.

This is false.

then the mind was not the sort of thing that says this is true because it's true.

The mind is not the sort of thing that is able to recognize the shape of reality and say, oh, this is true.