Dr Jeni Haynes

I can only do research that I can do when my body is capable.

I am completely and utterly immobilized.

I'm living on the DSP.

We've had to document everything for the NDIS.

It's been vile.

You end up feeling like you're the worst, most incapacitated human.

And it's hard.

And the things I can do...

aren't the things that I can be paid to do.

So I'm jobless.

I will always be jobless.

I mean, I'm living, thank goodness, I'm living now in a house by the Department of Housing.

which is wonderful.

But up until then, I was living in houses and couldn't afford the rent, and I lived in terror of being homeless.

So it's been very difficult.

And if I got that $840,000, I could have bought myself a house.

I could have my own home modified to meet my own needs, as opposed to being in a house that's been modified for a generalized person with a disability.

I'm not the only one.

There's a lot of us out there struggling with working and dealing with DID.

I mean, people talk, you've heard me give trigger warnings all the way through this, but I am triggered by mothers, by babies, by children.