Dr. Martha Beck

I was utterly loved. I was utterly, I belonged. I had nothing to prove. I was absolutely included in this love. And it was laughing with me. And it was like, you said you wouldn't forget, but you totally forgot this, didn't you? And I was like, yes, I really thought life is a bitch and then you die and that's all there is. And we were laughing together and

I was utterly loved. I was utterly, I belonged. I had nothing to prove. I was absolutely included in this love. And it was laughing with me. And it was like, you said you wouldn't forget, but you totally forgot this, didn't you? And I was like, yes, I really thought life is a bitch and then you die and that's all there is. And we were laughing together and

I was utterly loved. I was utterly, I belonged. I had nothing to prove. I was absolutely included in this love. And it was laughing with me. And it was like, you said you wouldn't forget, but you totally forgot this, didn't you? And I was like, yes, I really thought life is a bitch and then you die and that's all there is. And we were laughing together and

And it was so happy that I started crying. And one of the surgeons saw the tears and thought that I could feel the surgery, but I was numb. And so he said, she's in pain, she's in pain. And the anesthesiologist went to increase the medication. Uh-huh. And later when I said, I want to talk to the anesthesiologist because I thought that might be a drug effect. It was not a drug effect.

And it was so happy that I started crying. And one of the surgeons saw the tears and thought that I could feel the surgery, but I was numb. And so he said, she's in pain, she's in pain. And the anesthesiologist went to increase the medication. Uh-huh. And later when I said, I want to talk to the anesthesiologist because I thought that might be a drug effect. It was not a drug effect.

And it was so happy that I started crying. And one of the surgeons saw the tears and thought that I could feel the surgery, but I was numb. And so he said, she's in pain, she's in pain. And the anesthesiologist went to increase the medication. Uh-huh. And later when I said, I want to talk to the anesthesiologist because I thought that might be a drug effect. It was not a drug effect.

And I wanted to quiz him. And he said, what happened in there? And I sort of told him and he said, I went to increase the medication and a voice said to me, don't do that. She's crying because she's happy. And he was just pale because he thought he'd done the wrong thing. And he said, did I do something horrible? I was like, no, no.

And I wanted to quiz him. And he said, what happened in there? And I sort of told him and he said, I went to increase the medication and a voice said to me, don't do that. She's crying because she's happy. And he was just pale because he thought he'd done the wrong thing. And he said, did I do something horrible? I was like, no, no.

And I wanted to quiz him. And he said, what happened in there? And I sort of told him and he said, I went to increase the medication and a voice said to me, don't do that. She's crying because she's happy. And he was just pale because he thought he'd done the wrong thing. And he said, did I do something horrible? I was like, no, no.

He said, you know how many times that's happened to me in 33 years of practice? I said, no. And he said, once. And then he kissed me on the forehead and went away. But when the light touched me and sort of suffused me, it just said, you're about to go through some really hard stuff. And I was. Complete loss of all my family members, my job, my industry, my home, all my friends. Totally gone.

He said, you know how many times that's happened to me in 33 years of practice? I said, no. And he said, once. And then he kissed me on the forehead and went away. But when the light touched me and sort of suffused me, it just said, you're about to go through some really hard stuff. And I was. Complete loss of all my family members, my job, my industry, my home, all my friends. Totally gone.

He said, you know how many times that's happened to me in 33 years of practice? I said, no. And he said, once. And then he kissed me on the forehead and went away. But when the light touched me and sort of suffused me, it just said, you're about to go through some really hard stuff. And I was. Complete loss of all my family members, my job, my industry, my home, all my friends. Totally gone.

Yeah, I left everything. And it said, you're about to go through something really hard. Just remember, I'm always, always with you. And I came out of that surgery and it was kind of like the experience in Cambridge where I just said, okay, that light is with us. I am going to live as if I can see it all the time.

Yeah, I left everything. And it said, you're about to go through something really hard. Just remember, I'm always, always with you. And I came out of that surgery and it was kind of like the experience in Cambridge where I just said, okay, that light is with us. I am going to live as if I can see it all the time.

Yeah, I left everything. And it said, you're about to go through something really hard. Just remember, I'm always, always with you. And I came out of that surgery and it was kind of like the experience in Cambridge where I just said, okay, that light is with us. I am going to live as if I can see it all the time.

And then I had a son with Down syndrome who told me at a friend's funeral that he can see it all the time. He said, life isn't so sad after the light comes and opens your heart. And I was like, who told you that? And he told me that when he was 13, a light had appeared in his bedroom and filled him with peace and told him, I'm your teacher, you can do this.

And then I had a son with Down syndrome who told me at a friend's funeral that he can see it all the time. He said, life isn't so sad after the light comes and opens your heart. And I was like, who told you that? And he told me that when he was 13, a light had appeared in his bedroom and filled him with peace and told him, I'm your teacher, you can do this.

And then I had a son with Down syndrome who told me at a friend's funeral that he can see it all the time. He said, life isn't so sad after the light comes and opens your heart. And I was like, who told you that? And he told me that when he was 13, a light had appeared in his bedroom and filled him with peace and told him, I'm your teacher, you can do this.

And I said, you know, I can see the light. I said, the light told me it's always with us, even though we can't see it. And Adam said, oh, I can see it. And I was like, what, now you can? He was like, yeah, can't you? I was like, no, where is it? Is it up there in here? And he said, mom, it's everywhere. It's everywhere.

And I said, you know, I can see the light. I said, the light told me it's always with us, even though we can't see it. And Adam said, oh, I can see it. And I was like, what, now you can? He was like, yeah, can't you? I was like, no, where is it? Is it up there in here? And he said, mom, it's everywhere. It's everywhere.