Dr. Tara Swart

So, I mean, people came to visit me every single day.

I got so many flowers that I ran out of vessels to put them in.

And so one thing I learned is that if someone close to me loses someone, I'm going to buy them a vase, not flowers.

Yes.

Oh, my God, that's good.

It was a good learning.

And I'm talking about like six months solid of getting flowers like all the time.

Wow.

Even now, and it's been nearly four years.

And that's really lovely, isn't it?

Yeah.

So I was living on a large property that I would just walk around for half an hour every day.

And then because I didn't really have anything else to do or couldn't really do anything else, I just started walking for longer and longer.

And I felt the benefits on my mental health of doing that.

And I also had a weird analogy, which is that I have a terrible sense of direction.

And where I was living, I would have no signal.

So if I got lost, I wouldn't be able to use Google Maps.

And I could walk for hours without seeing anyone.

But I started going down paths I'd never been before.

And I just had this, a bit like the weird feeling of him not being him when he died.