Drew Burney

I don't have that crush to fall back on, that story to tell myself that, no, no, no, you don't need to get close to people because it's fine.

It doesn't matter.

But now I'm sitting here and now I have to actually deal with all these emotions and all these fears that I have and all that.

It's incredibly disorienting just because you don't have that anchor, that story to tell yourself.

Yeah.

That's phase two.

You could call it the void too, because at this point, again, your life was organized around those values that you had.

For me, it was, I think, just remaining safe in a way.

That calm that I could get from that, even though it was a detached calm, I still had a calm.

When you organize your life around something like that, and then it's taken away from you,

Yeah.

Obviously it's that vacuum you're talking about.

I'm just in the process right now.

I'm like, nothing's filled it yet.

And I don't know, don't quite know yet, but it's, yeah, it sucks.

It sucks.

I'll tell you that right now.

It does.

We'll get to that here in a second too, though.

But then you have the third phase, which is the new beginning.