Drew Burney

I respond to pain.

I've been paying lip service to it in a lot of ways.

I've done it in other ways too.

I've created healthy habits and all of that and built a healthy life for myself in a lot of ways.

But there's still, I think, another level of change that requires a degree of pain that I have shied away from to this point.

Yeah.

this helps a lot that that layered system helps a lot because it's like oh i don't have to go straight into like changing who i am you know and so that helps ease into it a little bit i think and gives me some more strategies around it ultimately at some point i'm really gonna have to face a lot of that yeah yeah to bring bring back the point of like traits versus adaptations right like you are probably

That's a good point actually, because during a change, it's painful, it's disorienting, it's discomfort.

I also feel incredibly engaged though right now.

I'm like sinking my teeth into life a little bit.

Like I'm digging into it a little bit and it's uncomfortable like I said.

You're right, it's not that like high emotional or even low emotional huge range of

everything's spilling out of me or anything like that.

But it is more like a, like a heightened sense of being engaged with life.

That's a big part of it.

And it's, that's scary and it is painful, but you're right for, for somebody like me, that's kind of the discomfort I have to sit in.

Pain is a great teacher.

I'm exhausted.

I'm so fucking exhausted.

You must be really fucking exhausted.