Ed Calderon

There's no concept of a veteran or a support network for people that go through the experiences that I went through. There were a lot of people that go through those experiences down there. There's no talk about that. There's a sense of machismo. You just take it. It's fine. Just don't go crazy. So you'd get a few days off. You get to leave and you would go get drunk.

and come back and he would get asked if you were okay and he would lie your ass off and say yes and just go through with it, go through the motions. I'm into history and I like reading about other warrior cultures and people that did things that they had to do. You know, PTSD has always been with us. It's been, this is what you talked about, your experience, what I'm talking about.

and come back and he would get asked if you were okay and he would lie your ass off and say yes and just go through with it, go through the motions. I'm into history and I like reading about other warrior cultures and people that did things that they had to do. You know, PTSD has always been with us. It's been, this is what you talked about, your experience, what I'm talking about.

and come back and he would get asked if you were okay and he would lie your ass off and say yes and just go through with it, go through the motions. I'm into history and I like reading about other warrior cultures and people that did things that they had to do. You know, PTSD has always been with us. It's been, this is what you talked about, your experience, what I'm talking about.

We're not talking about anything new. This is the history of the world. But I think there's something happened culturally that separated us from how people used to handle some of these things or how some people would talk about some of these things.

We're not talking about anything new. This is the history of the world. But I think there's something happened culturally that separated us from how people used to handle some of these things or how some people would talk about some of these things.

We're not talking about anything new. This is the history of the world. But I think there's something happened culturally that separated us from how people used to handle some of these things or how some people would talk about some of these things.

uh from uh you know spirit quest as they used to kill them or finding yourself or going off on these pilgrimages or you know whatever form they took uh ceremony um you know a ceremony is simply

uh from uh you know spirit quest as they used to kill them or finding yourself or going off on these pilgrimages or you know whatever form they took uh ceremony um you know a ceremony is simply

uh from uh you know spirit quest as they used to kill them or finding yourself or going off on these pilgrimages or you know whatever form they took uh ceremony um you know a ceremony is simply

uh and performing an act with a symbology just to convince your subconscious mind of something so from going to mass and eating a cracker that's supposed to be the body of jesus and drinking wine that's supposed to be the blood of jesus there's a symbology there um

uh and performing an act with a symbology just to convince your subconscious mind of something so from going to mass and eating a cracker that's supposed to be the body of jesus and drinking wine that's supposed to be the blood of jesus there's a symbology there um

uh and performing an act with a symbology just to convince your subconscious mind of something so from going to mass and eating a cracker that's supposed to be the body of jesus and drinking wine that's supposed to be the blood of jesus there's a symbology there um

To getting handed a silver coin at the start of a leadership position and getting told that you're going to get another one because you go into it knowing it's going to end. Yeah.

To getting handed a silver coin at the start of a leadership position and getting told that you're going to get another one because you go into it knowing it's going to end. Yeah.

To getting handed a silver coin at the start of a leadership position and getting told that you're going to get another one because you go into it knowing it's going to end. Yeah.

I think some of those things are missing in some of our kind of modern way of approaching some of these things. Some of these things have been amputated from us. We're suffering from a phantom limb syndrome when it comes to some of these things and what happens after. Like I grew up having parties at the cemetery during Day of the Dead.

I think some of those things are missing in some of our kind of modern way of approaching some of these things. Some of these things have been amputated from us. We're suffering from a phantom limb syndrome when it comes to some of these things and what happens after. Like I grew up having parties at the cemetery during Day of the Dead.

I think some of those things are missing in some of our kind of modern way of approaching some of these things. Some of these things have been amputated from us. We're suffering from a phantom limb syndrome when it comes to some of these things and what happens after. Like I grew up having parties at the cemetery during Day of the Dead.

I get a weird feeling every time I travel up here and I see empty cemeteries with no people there. It's like a forgotten space. There's no relationship there. I don't know. I think that whole culture of suck it up, be a man, go through it. I get that. It worked.