Ed Calderon

I get a weird feeling every time I travel up here and I see empty cemeteries with no people there. It's like a forgotten space. There's no relationship there. I don't know. I think that whole culture of suck it up, be a man, go through it. I get that. It worked.

I get a weird feeling every time I travel up here and I see empty cemeteries with no people there. It's like a forgotten space. There's no relationship there. I don't know. I think that whole culture of suck it up, be a man, go through it. I get that. It worked.

Yeah. Yeah, my mom used to say that. I'll give that quote again. I went through a horrible, a few bad situations, but I think one of the first ones, the war that I fought was at home. with an enemy that spoke the same language that I did. Every now and then we would share funerary homes with the enemy.

Yeah. Yeah, my mom used to say that. I'll give that quote again. I went through a horrible, a few bad situations, but I think one of the first ones, the war that I fought was at home. with an enemy that spoke the same language that I did. Every now and then we would share funerary homes with the enemy.

Yeah. Yeah, my mom used to say that. I'll give that quote again. I went through a horrible, a few bad situations, but I think one of the first ones, the war that I fought was at home. with an enemy that spoke the same language that I did. Every now and then we would share funerary homes with the enemy.

The counter guys were being mourned over on that side of the street and we were having our services for our guys over here. It was different in that way. They had a very horrible thing happen. Very traumatic. I lost a few people. And I was covered in blood. My clothing was covered in blood. My sneakers, my socks, feel in my toes. And blood has a tendency to kind of dry out and crust a little bit.

The counter guys were being mourned over on that side of the street and we were having our services for our guys over here. It was different in that way. They had a very horrible thing happen. Very traumatic. I lost a few people. And I was covered in blood. My clothing was covered in blood. My sneakers, my socks, feel in my toes. And blood has a tendency to kind of dry out and crust a little bit.

The counter guys were being mourned over on that side of the street and we were having our services for our guys over here. It was different in that way. They had a very horrible thing happen. Very traumatic. I lost a few people. And I was covered in blood. My clothing was covered in blood. My sneakers, my socks, feel in my toes. And blood has a tendency to kind of dry out and crust a little bit.

I remember I wrote the reports that I had to write and talked to the people that I had to talk and I was told to go to the hotel and wash up and come back the second day. I got in the car and drove straight home, like unconsciously, just drove to my parents' house. I drove probably three hours in the night straight there. I showed up sometime in the early mornings and my mom opened the door.

I remember I wrote the reports that I had to write and talked to the people that I had to talk and I was told to go to the hotel and wash up and come back the second day. I got in the car and drove straight home, like unconsciously, just drove to my parents' house. I drove probably three hours in the night straight there. I showed up sometime in the early mornings and my mom opened the door.

I remember I wrote the reports that I had to write and talked to the people that I had to talk and I was told to go to the hotel and wash up and come back the second day. I got in the car and drove straight home, like unconsciously, just drove to my parents' house. I drove probably three hours in the night straight there. I showed up sometime in the early mornings and my mom opened the door.

She didn't say anything. She sat me down, took my clothing off, put in the washer, and made me some coffee. She didn't ask anything. The next morning, I passed out for a bit. And she asked me, what do you want to do? I said, I want to go home. She said, there's no such thing as going back home, Ed.

She didn't say anything. She sat me down, took my clothing off, put in the washer, and made me some coffee. She didn't ask anything. The next morning, I passed out for a bit. And she asked me, what do you want to do? I said, I want to go home. She said, there's no such thing as going back home, Ed.

She didn't say anything. She sat me down, took my clothing off, put in the washer, and made me some coffee. She didn't ask anything. The next morning, I passed out for a bit. And she asked me, what do you want to do? I said, I want to go home. She said, there's no such thing as going back home, Ed.

Either you change on your way back to home or the home you left changes when you're gone and you don't recognize it when you come back. So she told me going back home is that trains left the station. There's no going back home. So you have to figure out what that looks like for you next. That was very mind-altering. Yeah. She lived through a lot herself, so she was very wise. Sounds like it.

Either you change on your way back to home or the home you left changes when you're gone and you don't recognize it when you come back. So she told me going back home is that trains left the station. There's no going back home. So you have to figure out what that looks like for you next. That was very mind-altering. Yeah. She lived through a lot herself, so she was very wise. Sounds like it.

Either you change on your way back to home or the home you left changes when you're gone and you don't recognize it when you come back. So she told me going back home is that trains left the station. There's no going back home. So you have to figure out what that looks like for you next. That was very mind-altering. Yeah. She lived through a lot herself, so she was very wise. Sounds like it.

She... In her own way, she told me to suck it up. I stood up and I remember smelling my clothes. They were like downy fresh, you know. She bagged me a lunch, got in the car. I saw all the missed phone calls on my cell phone. People were angry. I went back and faced the music. Told me, why don't you go? I said, I just need it. I just need it in a moment. I got reprimanded for leaving.

She... In her own way, she told me to suck it up. I stood up and I remember smelling my clothes. They were like downy fresh, you know. She bagged me a lunch, got in the car. I saw all the missed phone calls on my cell phone. People were angry. I went back and faced the music. Told me, why don't you go? I said, I just need it. I just need it in a moment. I got reprimanded for leaving.

She... In her own way, she told me to suck it up. I stood up and I remember smelling my clothes. They were like downy fresh, you know. She bagged me a lunch, got in the car. I saw all the missed phone calls on my cell phone. People were angry. I went back and faced the music. Told me, why don't you go? I said, I just need it. I just need it in a moment. I got reprimanded for leaving.