Eimear Coffey

Like, I don't know.

I felt like I'd been running.

I was on in flight or flight.

You know when you play catch, chase and in the schoolyard and you know when your adrenaline is really high and then somebody puts their hand in there, gotcha, and you kind of go, that's what I felt.

I felt like somebody had grabbed my shoulders and said, gotcha.

And I remember just feeling, that's it now.

Not that's it, I'm going to die, but that's it.

My mind went, that's it, you're going to heal.

You're running from everything.

You're pretending.

You're playing that role, you know.

And so, although it was the worst day of my life, Brenda, I might get a little bit emotional, it also changed my life for the better, you know.

It just, it changed my life.

That was the day I said, I am committing to myself and to healing and to getting better.

and not just I knew that they had a big list of this what you're going to have you're going to have six rounds of chemo mastectomy 15 rounds of radiation you're going to be on her septum blood they had the whole they had it all out but I knew I had no plan for the broken heart and the grief around Ollie and so I thought right they're going to do the physical stuff with the cancer

And they're positive enough about my diagnosis.

You know, I mean, they're never overly positive.

They can't be.

But they had a plan and they said this is going to take a year out of your life.

And I thought, that's it.