Elaine

I thought like they were kind of in my way.

So if I could cause an argument or cause a fight and step over everybody just to get my fix, I'd be okay.

You know, and then after that, then I, after the overdose, about six weeks later, my husband called his cousin who was a member of AA and he called her over to the house and

So I was upstairs getting ready to go to the meeting while snorting cocaine in the bedroom.

And I could hear him asking his cousin, what am I going to do with her?

And she said, look, she said, you're going to have to leave him or leave her or she's going to have to go to treatment.

And I'm upstairs and I'm thinking, who does she think she is?

So when I come down the stairs, my two daughters and my husband and that lady were standing in my hallway.

And to say I wanted the house to swallow me up for the very first time, although I was stoned, I saw my husband and my kids faces and I just wanted the house to swallow me up.

So we left that night.

That was a Saturday night to go to the meeting.

Again, the same Sunday, morning, noon and night, I was stoned, David.

I was just going to bed, stoned and waking up and starting all over again the next day.

And we went to the meeting that Sunday night again.

And I remember coming home from that meeting

And I thought to myself, OK, something has to give here.

I put three lines of cocaine out for myself and I threw the rest of it in the fire.

But the next morning, my husband came down the stairs and he gave me an ultimatum, David.

He said, look, he had a sheet of paper and he said, I want you to call this number or else I want you to leave the house and leave the kids and we don't want anything more to do with you.

So in that moment, I was like...