Eleanor Mills

Just before I was made redundant from the Sunday Times, I had been on a retreat in Jamaica where I'd taken some magic mushrooms.

And during, it was a kind of therapeutic retreat.

It wasn't just like taking them for larks.

It was medicine.

It was medicine.

It was a properly spiritual journey where you were going into taking the magic mushrooms, asking it some questions, and you do three heroic doses in a week.

And they call them heroic doses because they want you to reach that point of healing.

kind of singularity where your ego dissolves.

Does that mean the amount?

So it's quite a lot.

A heroic dose is really going to be.

So I took eight grams of psilocybin and, you know, then I know.

And everyone was doing that too.

So it was a lot.

And what it did was it kind of, on the last day, they said, you know, take away, throw away everything you no longer need in your life and all kind of blow it up.

And I had the sense of completely melting.

When I took the mushrooms, I had the sense of completely kind of melting into a golden, it was like being, at the time I described this being like in a big bowl of golden cream.

And I felt like I'd been recharged by the universe with this kind of golden light.

And what I came out of the trip with was just this really strong sense of the possibility of renewal and reinvention at this point.

And I came out of it with a sense that that was what I wanted to do, that I wanted to help people to catalyze that change.