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Which takes a while. Yeah. He just dropped her body to the floor. He didn't know what to do next, though. So he stole the woman's shoes and ran back to his car before anyone spotted him. So that's it? He just choked her into unconsciousness. This is the wild part of him. It's like him digging the hole. He digs the hole. He knows he wants a woman to be in there. Right.

But he doesn't know what he wants to do with her. Right. And even now he chokes this woman. He does something physically violent, chokes her to the point of unconsciousness, drops her on the ground and then says, I don't know what to do now. And just takes the shoes. Why did I do that? Like, what's my next move?

But he doesn't know what he wants to do with her. Right. And even now he chokes this woman. He does something physically violent, chokes her to the point of unconsciousness, drops her on the ground and then says, I don't know what to do now. And just takes the shoes. Why did I do that? Like, what's my next move?

Yeah, and I think it might be that he is so fucked up about sex and what he is interested in and what excites him. And he's had it drilled so hard into him that it's like shameful and taboo and secret and all this shit and like violence and all this stuff is intermingling that he literally does not know what to do with a woman. Right.

Yeah, and I think it might be that he is so fucked up about sex and what he is interested in and what excites him. And he's had it drilled so hard into him that it's like shameful and taboo and secret and all this shit and like violence and all this stuff is intermingling that he literally does not know what to do with a woman. Right.

Like he knows he wants to do something, but he's so fucking uneducated about it in a healthy way that he literally doesn't know what to do next. He's like, I know I want to do something.

Like he knows he wants to do something, but he's so fucking uneducated about it in a healthy way that he literally doesn't know what to do next. He's like, I know I want to do something.

And I know this excites me. I just don't literally don't know what the next step is.

And I know this excites me. I just don't literally don't know what the next step is.

Yeah. Like he doesn't even know what he's supposed to be doing. In his, like, deranged mind, you know? It's very scary. It's very strange and it's, like, very different from a lot of these assholes we've covered. Right.

Yeah. Like he doesn't even know what he's supposed to be doing. In his, like, deranged mind, you know? It's very scary. It's very strange and it's, like, very different from a lot of these assholes we've covered. Right.

Now, in the weeks that followed that, a pattern started emerging where Jerry would become stressed and go out for a walk and he would stalk a woman he noticed on the street, follow her for a time, and then would attack her, choke her, steal her shoes or other clothing items, and then he would just leave her.

Now, in the weeks that followed that, a pattern started emerging where Jerry would become stressed and go out for a walk and he would stalk a woman he noticed on the street, follow her for a time, and then would attack her, choke her, steal her shoes or other clothing items, and then he would just leave her.

And return to this shed on his parents' farm where he would fantasize and sleep with the shoes and just like touch the clothing. What the fuck? And feel like he was like in control again or like feel some sort of power.

And return to this shed on his parents' farm where he would fantasize and sleep with the shoes and just like touch the clothing. What the fuck? And feel like he was like in control again or like feel some sort of power.

Yeah.

Yeah.

At a time in his life when he found himself again under his mom's like domineering ways and like abusive ways, I think the stalking and thefts he said later gave him this like weird sense of empowerment and control that he was looking for.

At a time in his life when he found himself again under his mom's like domineering ways and like abusive ways, I think the stalking and thefts he said later gave him this like weird sense of empowerment and control that he was looking for.

And he was so fucked up that that's the route that he took, you know?