Elizabeth Day

I deliberately didn't want to guide her anywhere.

I said, yes, that makes sense.

And she said, I don't know if it's to do with children.

But if it is, I have a very strong sense that you were a mother in a past life and you were the mother of six and it almost melted you.

That was her word.

It almost melted you.

And this life has been offered to you to live on your own terms.

And that might be if you have tried to have children, you might have experienced fertility issues or miscarriage.

And when she said that, I was like, oh, so I totted up the number of unsuccessful fertility cycles, three.

And then I've had three miscarriages, six.

So I've actually technically been pregnant six times.

It was mind blowing.

I literally got goosebumps.

So did I. It felt so aligned with the truth that I had been avoiding in a way.

Yes.

Because I had had this yearning to be a mother and I had encountered so many obstacles and I'd kept going because I felt I wanted to, but I also felt that I should.

Yeah.

And what that psychic did, and I'm forever grateful to her for it, is she gave me permission to see what it would be like to let that idea go.

And it turned out that letting that idea go was incredibly liberating.

And it doesn't mean that I'm not sad about it.