Ella Al-Shamahi

And yet its mutation pattern fits almost perfectly with an evolutionary family tree.

And it was just like...

it's just sorry that's the noise that you make when your whole life is about to fall apart that that exact noise is the noise you make and i was just in hell like i was in hell um there'd be times where i'd just be looking out my window just going oh my god like what is this like what am i gonna do

Yeah, our marriage wasn't doing great.

Partly because we had an arranged marriage and we didn't know each other.

But partly for a number of different reasons.

One of which was this issue.

Like, you know, he, like...

I was clearly struggling and then there was a moment just an awful moment which was kind of I was just in the shower and as you often do in the shower you're kind of just having a conversation with yourself um you're also you know bluntly naked and and you're very exposed but you're in a safe place right and I kind of I basically I basically tell myself I have to find the strength to be honest that I just I believe in evolution

And I just fell to the floor.

I was hysterically crying.

I was just so, so distraught.

And the reason I was so distraught at this point was that I knew that meant I was going to have to leave my world.

I had no idea what was going to happen with my family.

Because, you know, it hadn't happened in my family before it.

But what I did know is it was going to drive a massive wedge.

Because it's such an extreme thing in my world...

and say that you believe in evolution and um you know that's just we just didn't do that and by the way all cases where that did happen like let me tell you loads of those girls got cut off um thank god my siblings came through in the way that they did um how did they come through they decided to embrace me regardless um they decided that i was their sister regardless makes me want to cry

I didn't tell people.

I just disappeared.