Em Rusciano
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And I'm like, wow.
Yeah.
I didn't have a problem with it.
Yeah.
I'm a pretty light drinker.
Yeah.
I drank a lot during lockdown, but I'm human.
Yeah.
But I found myself using it at night as I was getting further into the weeds, as around like 43, 44.
Yeah.
And I was needing it to stabilize.
And I realized I'm like, this isn't right.
And I started looking into it because that's what I do.
I pathologize myself, part of being neurodivergent.
And your body, as estrogen decreases, the way that it processes alcohol completely changes.
And it was making me morbidly depressed.
And quickly.
So I'd have like one or two glasses and then within three or four hours, the spiraling would start, the dread.
I'd worry about every single bill I had due.
I'd go through every conversation.