Emilie Kiser

trying to get Teddy settled, five-week-old baby.

And that doesn't excuse anything.

It doesn't excuse what happened.

It doesn't excuse any of the series of events after that.

But taking that accountability along with all the other things I know I could have changed gave me so much true, deep, real, raw empathy for him of this could have been me, even if I got to a point where I could not stay married to him, even if I accepted that of,

If there is a chance that we don't stay together, this was when we first lost Trigg, that I felt this way.

I would be able to forgive him because I would so deeply want him to forgive me and to know that I didn't mean for it to happen.

And that's exactly how I feel for Brady.

I really just have so much empathy and love for him.

And he is so strong.

And I'm really proud of us, honestly, and how we've grieved together through all the therapy we've done that I feel like we've really been given tools that even though our grief is so separate.

we have really done our best to come together.

And even if we grieve separately at times and we each have our moments, because I think that's healthy too.

You naturally don't sit and really all the time grieve with your partner.

You do, but there's so many moments throughout the day where you guys are feeling different emotions, ones at a 10, ones at an eight.

And it's not each other's job to balance it out.

Your job is to let your partner feel what they need to feel and then be there for them through every emotion.

And I'm really proud of us that I feel like we've done that and just done our best truly to really remember that all we have is each other in terms of understanding what we've been through and how much we love and miss him.

My husband really is the only person, one of the only people besides licensed professionals that I really feel comfortable feeling every emotion of grief.

I think that's natural because we raise Trigg.