Emilie Kiser

So many feelings coexist and that is forever.

And I feel like the longer I've gotten into my grief journey, even though I'm not very far in it at all in the grand scheme of things, the more I've just really learned that that is how I have to go through my life of just, I am allowed to feel whatever, Brady is allowed to feel whatever, my family is allowed to feel whatever, whatever.

But it can all coexist.

But the grief is never going away.

Yeah, or the stages of grief.

You hear that all the time.

Oh, there's stages of grief.

Stages of grief were designed.

And I actually learned this from Joanne Cacciatore, who's a doctor that we went to.

Like very early on, we went to a few of her

She owns a care farm, kind of like a grief place for parents who have gone through child loss.

And she just basically said, plain and simple, that's designed for elderly people who are at the end of life, of the stages of accepting that your life is going to end.

That is not made for parents who have lost their child because there are no stages.

It is never ending.

You could be in one stage at some point, and then at the next point, you're in the complete opposite stage.

And you just have to accept that you have to feel what you feel when it comes.

And that is just how you have to go about it forever.

We were, I mean, obviously barely able to get out of bed, barely able to get up and brush our teeth.

We were not in a position to even take care of our younger child.

I'm so grateful for the support and the family we had around us because we just could not have done it.