Emma Chamberlain

I just tried to numb myself by watching people do crumble cookie reviews on YouTube shorts and try the new McDonald's dill pickle Grinch meal.

Like that was what I was doing.

And that actually put me into an even worse, even darker place because I felt guilty that I was doing that.

And mindless scrolling puts your brain in just a bad place anyway.

Then my break ends, it's time to go back to work, and I'm in a really bad place.

I'm really not feeling good.

I'm like suppressing feelings about my breakup, not wanting to address them.

I'm feeling like shit about myself.

My confidence is low because I just brain rotted for two weeks straight and did nothing of value.

I wasted an opportunity to effectively rest even when I know better, which lowered my confidence, made me feel disgusting about myself.

I hate a breaking point.

I felt so bad after this failed two weeks of rest and

Like I can't even express to you how disgusting I felt that I hit a breaking point.

It was my first day back to work, what was supposed to be my first day back to work, and I could not move.

I think I laid in bed all day.

I got not a thing done.

But something interesting happened.

where I think I laid on the couch all day, I actually rested.

I wasn't scrolling.

I was tired of scrolling.