Eric Smith

By the luck of the draw and by the roll of the dice, I happened to be in a weird enough psychotic state to agree to close the peen at that particular point. So I was put on Clozapine. Started at very low dose. I want to give a quick shout out to Team Daniel Running for Recovery, Dr. Rob Leitman and his wife, Dr. Anne Mandel, and all of the people in this group.

By the luck of the draw and by the roll of the dice, I happened to be in a weird enough psychotic state to agree to close the peen at that particular point. So I was put on Clozapine. Started at very low dose. I want to give a quick shout out to Team Daniel Running for Recovery, Dr. Rob Leitman and his wife, Dr. Anne Mandel, and all of the people in this group.

They have a stellar reputation for managing Clozapine. And here's why I'm saying this is a value. Directly relates to what I'm about to say. 10 plus years of failure on psych meds. My parents losing more than a decade of their lives. Me losing more than a decade of my life. Lost relationships, lost money, lost time, lost energy, lost everything for more than a decade.

They have a stellar reputation for managing Clozapine. And here's why I'm saying this is a value. Directly relates to what I'm about to say. 10 plus years of failure on psych meds. My parents losing more than a decade of their lives. Me losing more than a decade of my life. Lost relationships, lost money, lost time, lost energy, lost everything for more than a decade.

They have a stellar reputation for managing Clozapine. And here's why I'm saying this is a value. Directly relates to what I'm about to say. 10 plus years of failure on psych meds. My parents losing more than a decade of their lives. Me losing more than a decade of my life. Lost relationships, lost money, lost time, lost energy, lost everything for more than a decade.

I am put on Clozapine. About two weeks into being put on Clozapine, I woke up. I'm in my hospital room. I look around and it's quiet. And I don't mean the type of quiet where I can't hear anything. I mean the type of quiet where... I didn't know I had that much noise going on in my mind until the meds started to quiet stuff down. I looked around the room. Everyone's getting ready for breakfast.

I am put on Clozapine. About two weeks into being put on Clozapine, I woke up. I'm in my hospital room. I look around and it's quiet. And I don't mean the type of quiet where I can't hear anything. I mean the type of quiet where... I didn't know I had that much noise going on in my mind until the meds started to quiet stuff down. I looked around the room. Everyone's getting ready for breakfast.

I am put on Clozapine. About two weeks into being put on Clozapine, I woke up. I'm in my hospital room. I look around and it's quiet. And I don't mean the type of quiet where I can't hear anything. I mean the type of quiet where... I didn't know I had that much noise going on in my mind until the meds started to quiet stuff down. I looked around the room. Everyone's getting ready for breakfast.

Like this guy, you know, he's brushing his hair. This guy's putting on some jeans. And I'm like, it's eerie quiet. I wonder what's going on. And because I was still half psychotic, I wasn't like a switch of coming back to reality. My first thought was, oh, I must not have any missions from the FBI or the CIA today or I'd be hearing about it, which is what I thought the noise was up to that point.

Like this guy, you know, he's brushing his hair. This guy's putting on some jeans. And I'm like, it's eerie quiet. I wonder what's going on. And because I was still half psychotic, I wasn't like a switch of coming back to reality. My first thought was, oh, I must not have any missions from the FBI or the CIA today or I'd be hearing about it, which is what I thought the noise was up to that point.

Like this guy, you know, he's brushing his hair. This guy's putting on some jeans. And I'm like, it's eerie quiet. I wonder what's going on. And because I was still half psychotic, I wasn't like a switch of coming back to reality. My first thought was, oh, I must not have any missions from the FBI or the CIA today or I'd be hearing about it, which is what I thought the noise was up to that point.

I thought I had been hearing General David Petraeus. I thought I had been hearing Leon Panetta. I thought I'd been hearing like the big names in my ears the whole time about this. And then I remember going to breakfast like 20 minutes later and I'm looking around. It's a different type of quiet.

I thought I had been hearing General David Petraeus. I thought I had been hearing Leon Panetta. I thought I'd been hearing like the big names in my ears the whole time about this. And then I remember going to breakfast like 20 minutes later and I'm looking around. It's a different type of quiet.

I thought I had been hearing General David Petraeus. I thought I had been hearing Leon Panetta. I thought I'd been hearing like the big names in my ears the whole time about this. And then I remember going to breakfast like 20 minutes later and I'm looking around. It's a different type of quiet.

I hear people, you know, normal breakfast cafeteria stuff, cutting things, eating food, drinking stuff, putting down their cup. And I'm like, what is this? Like, well, what is this feeling of like quiet in an absence of noise and calm? And later that week into the following week,

I hear people, you know, normal breakfast cafeteria stuff, cutting things, eating food, drinking stuff, putting down their cup. And I'm like, what is this? Like, well, what is this feeling of like quiet in an absence of noise and calm? And later that week into the following week,

I hear people, you know, normal breakfast cafeteria stuff, cutting things, eating food, drinking stuff, putting down their cup. And I'm like, what is this? Like, well, what is this feeling of like quiet in an absence of noise and calm? And later that week into the following week,

the first i would say major milestone towards recovery and coming back to sanity i remember walking around the halls of that hospital walking around outside shooting some hoops because there's a they had basketball outdoors and i'm like eric you've never been to quantico that's where the fbi trains you've never been to langley that's where the cia trains you dropped out of high school your junior year you don't have the skills necessary to break codes that you think that you've broken like what is this that you've been doing

the first i would say major milestone towards recovery and coming back to sanity i remember walking around the halls of that hospital walking around outside shooting some hoops because there's a they had basketball outdoors and i'm like eric you've never been to quantico that's where the fbi trains you've never been to langley that's where the cia trains you dropped out of high school your junior year you don't have the skills necessary to break codes that you think that you've broken like what is this that you've been doing

the first i would say major milestone towards recovery and coming back to sanity i remember walking around the halls of that hospital walking around outside shooting some hoops because there's a they had basketball outdoors and i'm like eric you've never been to quantico that's where the fbi trains you've never been to langley that's where the cia trains you dropped out of high school your junior year you don't have the skills necessary to break codes that you think that you've broken like what is this that you've been doing