Ernestine Dean

I was born into this amniotic fluid of grief.

It took a lot out of my grandparents to do that. My grandfather made sure that some animals came along, and he said that when everything had been packed up, when it had been packed on the donkey car, it came to the back of the house, it was now empty, and he stood there. He just stood there and took a last look at this place that they had never imagined before. would at some stage not be home.

It took a lot out of my grandparents to do that. My grandfather made sure that some animals came along, and he said that when everything had been packed up, when it had been packed on the donkey car, it came to the back of the house, it was now empty, and he stood there. He just stood there and took a last look at this place that they had never imagined before. would at some stage not be home.

It took a lot out of my grandparents to do that. My grandfather made sure that some animals came along, and he said that when everything had been packed up, when it had been packed on the donkey car, it came to the back of the house, it was now empty, and he stood there. He just stood there and took a last look at this place that they had never imagined before. would at some stage not be home.

And he said he stood there at the back of the house, out of the sight of the family and everyone, and he cried like a baby.

And he said he stood there at the back of the house, out of the sight of the family and everyone, and he cried like a baby.

And he said he stood there at the back of the house, out of the sight of the family and everyone, and he cried like a baby.

Constancia is a particularly fertile part of the cave. And so when I close my eyes, I'm already smelling that dark, rich soil. You know, that kind of chocolatey, brown, rich, grainy soil. A place of such comfort for us because it's where we come from.

Constancia is a particularly fertile part of the cave. And so when I close my eyes, I'm already smelling that dark, rich soil. You know, that kind of chocolatey, brown, rich, grainy soil. A place of such comfort for us because it's where we come from.

Constancia is a particularly fertile part of the cave. And so when I close my eyes, I'm already smelling that dark, rich soil. You know, that kind of chocolatey, brown, rich, grainy soil. A place of such comfort for us because it's where we come from.

And when you walk in there, you walk on, you're crunching acorns with your feet and like a bed of pine leaves, which also brings like releases so much earth, a dryness of it in the summer. And then in the winter and autumn months where it's more wet, it also feels so alive. And that's where there's so many pine trees there and so many cones on the ground that we would collect.

And when you walk in there, you walk on, you're crunching acorns with your feet and like a bed of pine leaves, which also brings like releases so much earth, a dryness of it in the summer. And then in the winter and autumn months where it's more wet, it also feels so alive. And that's where there's so many pine trees there and so many cones on the ground that we would collect.

And when you walk in there, you walk on, you're crunching acorns with your feet and like a bed of pine leaves, which also brings like releases so much earth, a dryness of it in the summer. And then in the winter and autumn months where it's more wet, it also feels so alive. And that's where there's so many pine trees there and so many cones on the ground that we would collect.

One of the things that we did with them as children was to go back and gather pinecones. bring it back to Gloucester Park, roast it either on the fire or in the wood stove. And this heat would then release the cones, open them and release or make visible pine kernels.

One of the things that we did with them as children was to go back and gather pinecones. bring it back to Gloucester Park, roast it either on the fire or in the wood stove. And this heat would then release the cones, open them and release or make visible pine kernels.

One of the things that we did with them as children was to go back and gather pinecones. bring it back to Gloucester Park, roast it either on the fire or in the wood stove. And this heat would then release the cones, open them and release or make visible pine kernels.

The whole house smelled like, it was just this incredible roasted kind of caramel scent in the house. Good fire to begin with, the heat of the oven burning. and then the pine cones open. And then you take the pine kernels out and mash them, add brown sugar and butter, and there is nothing, nothing like that smell and that comfort that I experienced in childhood.

The whole house smelled like, it was just this incredible roasted kind of caramel scent in the house. Good fire to begin with, the heat of the oven burning. and then the pine cones open. And then you take the pine kernels out and mash them, add brown sugar and butter, and there is nothing, nothing like that smell and that comfort that I experienced in childhood.

The whole house smelled like, it was just this incredible roasted kind of caramel scent in the house. Good fire to begin with, the heat of the oven burning. and then the pine cones open. And then you take the pine kernels out and mash them, add brown sugar and butter, and there is nothing, nothing like that smell and that comfort that I experienced in childhood.

You know, when I think of it now as a woman, as a mother of my own children, older than I was as a kid, I see that loss more now.