Ernestine Dean

You know, when I think of it now as a woman, as a mother of my own children, older than I was as a kid, I see that loss more now.

You know, when I think of it now as a woman, as a mother of my own children, older than I was as a kid, I see that loss more now.

You cannot breathe. You start kind of choking and the throat is constricting.

You cannot breathe. You start kind of choking and the throat is constricting.

You cannot breathe. You start kind of choking and the throat is constricting.

The smell feels like an attack. It literally feels like an attack. It's a burning sensation, like your nasal passages will throw your mouth into your chest. Your eyes are burning and tearing. That's why it's called tear gas.

The smell feels like an attack. It literally feels like an attack. It's a burning sensation, like your nasal passages will throw your mouth into your chest. Your eyes are burning and tearing. That's why it's called tear gas.

The smell feels like an attack. It literally feels like an attack. It's a burning sensation, like your nasal passages will throw your mouth into your chest. Your eyes are burning and tearing. That's why it's called tear gas.

There's so much grief there. There's so much sorrow there. And there's also so much joy and pride. We are so strong as a people.

There's so much grief there. There's so much sorrow there. And there's also so much joy and pride. We are so strong as a people.

There's so much grief there. There's so much sorrow there. And there's also so much joy and pride. We are so strong as a people.

I need them to know certain rights that are also survival and hold our stories.

I need them to know certain rights that are also survival and hold our stories.

I need them to know certain rights that are also survival and hold our stories.

Because I'm on the other side of... The acute grief that I was raised in and the acute trauma of the times in apartheid. I'm starting to smell other things that must have been there. They were always there, but I'm smelling the lake. I'm smelling the wet, kind of the marshiness of this part of Grassy Park on the flay water, on the pond.

Because I'm on the other side of... The acute grief that I was raised in and the acute trauma of the times in apartheid. I'm starting to smell other things that must have been there. They were always there, but I'm smelling the lake. I'm smelling the wet, kind of the marshiness of this part of Grassy Park on the flay water, on the pond.

Because I'm on the other side of... The acute grief that I was raised in and the acute trauma of the times in apartheid. I'm starting to smell other things that must have been there. They were always there, but I'm smelling the lake. I'm smelling the wet, kind of the marshiness of this part of Grassy Park on the flay water, on the pond.

What's beautiful is that there are many lilies here, Arum lilies, which is in a way the totem flower of my people of Constantia. It has a very, for me, it has a very fresh green scent, almost cucumber-like. You know, I'm sure it's not different for different people, but it has a green smell.

What's beautiful is that there are many lilies here, Arum lilies, which is in a way the totem flower of my people of Constantia. It has a very, for me, it has a very fresh green scent, almost cucumber-like. You know, I'm sure it's not different for different people, but it has a green smell.

What's beautiful is that there are many lilies here, Arum lilies, which is in a way the totem flower of my people of Constantia. It has a very, for me, it has a very fresh green scent, almost cucumber-like. You know, I'm sure it's not different for different people, but it has a green smell.