Eset Rose

How do I let go of this guilt that I gave him this?

P.S.

I love you, Glennon.

I'm so looking forward to a future with our children, you know, because we are, we are doing this work of being self-aware and being accountable and having the ability to skillfully communicate and model what we didn't have and give our kids that.

And it's just, it's really profound.

And my son has, well, I think,

Teachers would say he had anxiety.

I never quite gave him that label.

When he was like verbal, first things he could say to me, he would always struggle to go into such social situations.

And I was forced, you know, everyone had to be respectful and hug and kiss all my elders and all this stuff.

And I'm sure I was the same as him.

And we were going to another party and I was kind of dreading the moment.

And as soon as he had words, he said, mommy, I just need some time in the car before we go in.

And I was like, I need time in the car too.

And I love that.

So now it's like, you know, people call him shy and anxious.

I'm like, I don't call, I gave him none of those labels and he'll just go, mommy, you know, I just need time.

Now he's 11.

And it's just like, wow, we have a future ahead of us where our children, because of our permission giving and our self-awareness and our work and our practice, I feel good about it.

I don't know.