Esther Falick

I had a beard like I was a bro, but she would call me beautiful.

And I was like, why does that feel so good?

Yeah.

Because people would call me handsome and I wouldn't believe them.

And I was.

I look back and I'm like, oh.

Good looking dude.

That's a good looking dude, you know.

But when she called me beautiful, I was like, I want to be that.

And I can believe it when she says it.

And you should feel attractive.

So after we broke up, I remember I was talking about the breakup to a friend.

And I said, I think that I want to begin thinking about what it would be like if I explored in the gender playground.

Like that was how far I had to be realized.

removed from it I was like I want to begin thinking about if I considered what it would be like in another universe where I you know like if I read a book about yeah exactly right right exactly and she had the best response ever which was she just was like amazing here's four of my dresses what a beautiful friend

truly an amazing friend.

I started kind of playing in the playground, would wear the dresses and be like, whoa.

Look in the mirror and start to see a glimmer of something, you know?

And then during the pandemic, the universe was like, you're gonna need to untie a lot of knots.

So we're going to give you some time to do that.