Esther Falick

Really?

Well, I was living alone.

And I was like, the only way that I'm going to stay sane is if I like dive into this self-work.

Right before the pandemic, I had started going to like Al-Anon, like 12 Step.

I'm in like Coda, Codependents Anonymous.

Starting to look at all that.

I was going to meetings virtually, then I was journaling, yoga, meditating, and I also had a friend who does angel readings.

I was starting to sense that there was something here.

This little light in my chest that was slowly starting to...

be uncovered and I had this dream at the start of the dream I was like riding on a whale I had like friends over I was in my living room like my floor is made up of that mesh that's like under carpet sometimes you know under it was like an ocean and the whale tried to come up and breach but got like caught on the net I turned to it and I was like really anxious and I was like no no no don't do it yet like they're not ready yet they're not ready wow

And then when I woke up, I was like, that whale is ready to breach.

It's just me stopping it.

Yeah.

Yeah.

Yeah.

You sob with your therapist.

Yeah.

It was so terrifying.

But at the same time, I had never been able to imagine a future.

When I would project into the future, I couldn't see myself.