Fallon Farinacci

But my dad was Indigenous and he was murdered. And so it was at the closing ceremonies that I grabbed my husband's leg and I whispered to him. I said, oh, I get it. And he's like, you get what? I was like, I'm the girl. I should have died. I shouldn't be here. Or I also shouldn't know anything about my culture. my background or be connected to my community. And so like that really stuck with me.

My younger brother was, he had continued to be in my life and he built a beautiful life with his, his wife and his kids. And I mean, I often think like, I don't know, I think I'm a good mom, but my brother was like a great dad.

My younger brother was, he had continued to be in my life and he built a beautiful life with his, his wife and his kids. And I mean, I often think like, I don't know, I think I'm a good mom, but my brother was like a great dad.

My younger brother was, he had continued to be in my life and he built a beautiful life with his, his wife and his kids. And I mean, I often think like, I don't know, I think I'm a good mom, but my brother was like a great dad.

both of them and in so weird to say and in 2023 i think just i again i can't speculate what was going on with my brother and his own mental health but um he committed suicide in november of 2023 uh and it was really yeah and how old was he At 36. The day he died, I was in my daughter's room and I was cleaning her room.

both of them and in so weird to say and in 2023 i think just i again i can't speculate what was going on with my brother and his own mental health but um he committed suicide in november of 2023 uh and it was really yeah and how old was he At 36. The day he died, I was in my daughter's room and I was cleaning her room.

both of them and in so weird to say and in 2023 i think just i again i can't speculate what was going on with my brother and his own mental health but um he committed suicide in november of 2023 uh and it was really yeah and how old was he At 36. The day he died, I was in my daughter's room and I was cleaning her room.

And it's funny how trauma sits with you because we moved in the last year and I refused, refused to clean my daughter's room when we moved, when we got to the new house. We lived at our current house for probably it was five months before and i didn't think about it and then it just hit me one day i was like oh that's why i'm not cleaning her room

And it's funny how trauma sits with you because we moved in the last year and I refused, refused to clean my daughter's room when we moved, when we got to the new house. We lived at our current house for probably it was five months before and i didn't think about it and then it just hit me one day i was like oh that's why i'm not cleaning her room

And it's funny how trauma sits with you because we moved in the last year and I refused, refused to clean my daughter's room when we moved, when we got to the new house. We lived at our current house for probably it was five months before and i didn't think about it and then it just hit me one day i was like oh that's why i'm not cleaning her room

It took me that whole time to even realize it because I was cleaning my daughter's room, her closet, organizing it. And for the first time, I mean, my phone is in my pocket usually, or at the desk all the time, like it's always around me. And It wasn't near me that day. I left it downstairs. My youngest was playing on the main floor. My oldest was in the basement.

It took me that whole time to even realize it because I was cleaning my daughter's room, her closet, organizing it. And for the first time, I mean, my phone is in my pocket usually, or at the desk all the time, like it's always around me. And It wasn't near me that day. I left it downstairs. My youngest was playing on the main floor. My oldest was in the basement.

It took me that whole time to even realize it because I was cleaning my daughter's room, her closet, organizing it. And for the first time, I mean, my phone is in my pocket usually, or at the desk all the time, like it's always around me. And It wasn't near me that day. I left it downstairs. My youngest was playing on the main floor. My oldest was in the basement.

So I was cleaning my daughter's room and my phone wasn't anywhere near me. It was on the main floor. My youngest was on the main floor just playing and that while I was upstairs and my oldest was in the basement.

So I was cleaning my daughter's room and my phone wasn't anywhere near me. It was on the main floor. My youngest was on the main floor just playing and that while I was upstairs and my oldest was in the basement.

So I was cleaning my daughter's room and my phone wasn't anywhere near me. It was on the main floor. My youngest was on the main floor just playing and that while I was upstairs and my oldest was in the basement.

i had didn't think of anything of it i went downstairs and i saw some missed calls from a phone number i didn't know and my husband's cousin and i thought why is she calling me you know like i don't i'm close with her but i was like she wouldn't call me and i didn't know the other phone number so i just kind of left it um and i took a break and i was standing in my kitchen and my my husband walked in and i

i had didn't think of anything of it i went downstairs and i saw some missed calls from a phone number i didn't know and my husband's cousin and i thought why is she calling me you know like i don't i'm close with her but i was like she wouldn't call me and i didn't know the other phone number so i just kind of left it um and i took a break and i was standing in my kitchen and my my husband walked in and i

i had didn't think of anything of it i went downstairs and i saw some missed calls from a phone number i didn't know and my husband's cousin and i thought why is she calling me you know like i don't i'm close with her but i was like she wouldn't call me and i didn't know the other phone number so i just kind of left it um and i took a break and i was standing in my kitchen and my my husband walked in and i

just saw it immediately his face and i said who who who died and he just shook his head and i was like no and i screamed so loud and i had Like, no concept that my youngest was right behind me. And I was just screaming. Screaming. I was like, no, no. I said, no. I said, I said, are you sure? Like, are they sure? And that's, he's like, yeah, I think so. I think they're sure.