Farrah Abraham

And like other kind of like people who are just lost a lot of people.

So I was like, why did I why did I not come to the trauma center when I was 16 and pregnant and have all these cool tools now that I have?

in my mind, in my brain, at home, it really probably would have helped me bounce back quicker, maybe from a sexual assault or bounce back quicker from other traumas that I continually have.

So I'm just, again, thankful for that.

Circling back to the traumatic experience of losing her father, do you feel like your mom was not there for you emotionally whenever?

Because it plays out on the show, you and your mom have a very tumultuous relationship where it's like,

Very on again, off again.

And I feel as a viewer that your mom almost wasn't emotionally there for you.

And do you feel like that has been like a huge thing in you and your mom's relationship even to this day?

Yes.

You see like on this show that maybe my mom and I disagree about a lot of things.

I would say in all, because I had to like really, you know, like 12 step inventory trauma center, you actually write down, it's called the fifth step.

You write down anyone you have relationships with.

So I'm writing down my mom, I'm writing down my dad, anything.

and what came up just so you know in those like 12 steps and like going through relationships and why maybe people saw like maybe i didn't feel like my mom was supportive it's actually way more than just not having support it's like was i seen right she never saw how much i love someone she like she came up after hearing that he had passed away that she was happy that he was gone

And I think we might have our own feelings like I would with Sophia and her boyfriends in those situations.

But I do know that like I have reasoning and capability of understanding like someone has feelings here and I need to put my stuff to the side.

That was crazy.

But a lot of what came up at the 12 Step Trauma Center when you're writing down your relationships is abandonment, abandonment, abandonment.

And most people will say, well, I didn't abandon you like you were living at my house.