FG (First Patient to Receive Puberty Blockers)

I think that, yeah, it was a bit stressful to be fair because, you know, you have this like kind of underlying stress, a stress with phones because you'd answer and you didn't want to be considered a woman because you had a high voice.

I think that, yeah, it was a bit stressful to be fair because, you know, you have this like kind of underlying stress, a stress with phones because you'd answer and you didn't want to be considered a woman because you had a high voice.

But at the same time, so that's always, that always stressed me out, especially when I, as your voice started to change, it just became difficult because, well, well, how are they addressing you now? So you're always thinking about those things plus toilets. Yeah.

But at the same time, so that's always, that always stressed me out, especially when I, as your voice started to change, it just became difficult because, well, well, how are they addressing you now? So you're always thinking about those things plus toilets. Yeah.

I felt I didn't want people to point me out as, oh, that's somebody that's going to this. I just didn't want to be seen.

I felt I didn't want people to point me out as, oh, that's somebody that's going to this. I just didn't want to be seen.

But there is still that transition of old life, new life. Who am I going to run into? What do I have to say? Even at university, I ran into people that were from my school. And I remember the one thing I said, I met this guy and he was a year below me. And of course, he knew who I was. And he goes, oh, blah, blah, blah. And my voice is lower. And I went, one thing, don't say she to me.

But there is still that transition of old life, new life. Who am I going to run into? What do I have to say? Even at university, I ran into people that were from my school. And I remember the one thing I said, I met this guy and he was a year below me. And of course, he knew who I was. And he goes, oh, blah, blah, blah. And my voice is lower. And I went, one thing, don't say she to me.

And that was the only thing I said to him. And that was it. We never talked about it again. But there were a few dice situations with somebody else that was, it's amazing how small the world is, that some things got back to other people and they confronted me with it. And I just laughed it off and pretended that I, you know, even I made it ridiculous because I said, oh, what do you think?

And that was the only thing I said to him. And that was it. We never talked about it again. But there were a few dice situations with somebody else that was, it's amazing how small the world is, that some things got back to other people and they confronted me with it. And I just laughed it off and pretended that I, you know, even I made it ridiculous because I said, oh, what do you think?

I want to be a girl. I just turned around. These people were so confused that they dropped it. But that was pretty, you know, you're always in the back of your mind. You're always worried about these things, especially then, because why do I want people to view me differently? That's my whole thing. Then people start to look at you differently.

I want to be a girl. I just turned around. These people were so confused that they dropped it. But that was pretty, you know, you're always in the back of your mind. You're always worried about these things, especially then, because why do I want people to view me differently? That's my whole thing. Then people start to look at you differently.

I'm like, no, that's exactly what I don't want people to do. or feel that they have a special bond with because they you know they know something about me which at the same time it's okay but at the same time by saying that you're saying it's a weakness that's what you're saying and they can use it against you whenever they like even though it's like faulting me for being small

I'm like, no, that's exactly what I don't want people to do. or feel that they have a special bond with because they you know they know something about me which at the same time it's okay but at the same time by saying that you're saying it's a weakness that's what you're saying and they can use it against you whenever they like even though it's like faulting me for being small

which people still do. It's still used as a weakness. It's not my fault I'm small. What do you want me to do about it? It's not something that I'm responsible. I'm responsible about how smart I am, what I've done with my life. So you're the loser. But not about how I was born into a body that didn't belong to my mindset. And the only thing I can do is deal with it and be successful at it.

which people still do. It's still used as a weakness. It's not my fault I'm small. What do you want me to do about it? It's not something that I'm responsible. I'm responsible about how smart I am, what I've done with my life. So you're the loser. But not about how I was born into a body that didn't belong to my mindset. And the only thing I can do is deal with it and be successful at it.

No, so I have a lot to say about it, but at the end of the day, I'm like, fuck off. I don't feel like it. Why do I even have to have these thought processes? I've already got my defense ready if it ever came up, because no, I will not be treated in a different way or have the idea that you feel superior because, oh, poor you. Fuck off.

No, so I have a lot to say about it, but at the end of the day, I'm like, fuck off. I don't feel like it. Why do I even have to have these thought processes? I've already got my defense ready if it ever came up, because no, I will not be treated in a different way or have the idea that you feel superior because, oh, poor you. Fuck off.

That hasn't actually happened, but just to give you an idea of how my mind works.

That hasn't actually happened, but just to give you an idea of how my mind works.