FG (First Patient to Receive Puberty Blockers)

But I mean, it wasn't completely new because these hormones blockers were being given to kids that were entering precocious puberty and in the East Bloc countries for gymnasts, but we don't talk about that. So there is some kind of data there, right? Or at least clinical experience. Exactly.

But I mean, it wasn't completely new because these hormones blockers were being given to kids that were entering precocious puberty and in the East Bloc countries for gymnasts, but we don't talk about that. So there is some kind of data there, right? Or at least clinical experience. Exactly.

No, because there was an alternative.

No, because there was an alternative.

Yeah, I was like, otherwise I'm leaving, leaving this world. Which I wasn't, but it was that kind of...

Yeah, I was like, otherwise I'm leaving, leaving this world. Which I wasn't, but it was that kind of...

that feeling was there it was like there's no choice you know that we have to do something this is not okay I'm not doing this yeah I was like put my foot down yeah um no I could be very pig-headed yeah so no I'm not doing it no no no no so uh puberty that was I mean it literally saved my life um so I feel indebted

that feeling was there it was like there's no choice you know that we have to do something this is not okay I'm not doing this yeah I was like put my foot down yeah um no I could be very pig-headed yeah so no I'm not doing it no no no no so uh puberty that was I mean it literally saved my life um so I feel indebted

I just, yeah, I do. And it hurt. Because you injected it into a muscle. And because I was also so body critical, I didn't want to inject into my bum, which is the much better option. So I had it done in my leg the first time and that hurt like a motherfucker.

I just, yeah, I do. And it hurt. Because you injected it into a muscle. And because I was also so body critical, I didn't want to inject into my bum, which is the much better option. So I had it done in my leg the first time and that hurt like a motherfucker.

No, yeah, no.

No, yeah, no.

Yeah, I had to do a lot of psychometric and psychological testing anyway at various points in time. And I remember doing with Peggy. I filled in a lot of paperwork, a lot of questionnaires.

Yeah, I had to do a lot of psychometric and psychological testing anyway at various points in time. And I remember doing with Peggy. I filled in a lot of paperwork, a lot of questionnaires.

And then I decided I didn't want to go on to them until I finished school. Okay. Because I didn't want to have to explain myself. Now I just, I'd frozen time. And if I went on to hormones, which is very paradoxical because on the one hand, all I wanted to do was go on a male hormones. I just didn't want to have to explain it to people.

And then I decided I didn't want to go on to them until I finished school. Okay. Because I didn't want to have to explain myself. Now I just, I'd frozen time. And if I went on to hormones, which is very paradoxical because on the one hand, all I wanted to do was go on a male hormones. I just didn't want to have to explain it to people.

Because again, it would make me vulnerable. And why do I have to explain myself to you? You mean nothing to me. Well, they did, but you know what I mean? It just puts you in a very vulnerable position. I'll never know how it would have been if I had said it. Hello, well, this is what's going to happen. Stand up in class, like, out yourself. I don't want to do that. I never wanted to do that.

Because again, it would make me vulnerable. And why do I have to explain myself to you? You mean nothing to me. Well, they did, but you know what I mean? It just puts you in a very vulnerable position. I'll never know how it would have been if I had said it. Hello, well, this is what's going to happen. Stand up in class, like, out yourself. I don't want to do that. I never wanted to do that.

So I chose not to. And maybe that's my own little hang-up, but that's just pretty much how I went through life.

So I chose not to. And maybe that's my own little hang-up, but that's just pretty much how I went through life.