FG (First Patient to Receive Puberty Blockers)

And I think it was like with the undertone of suicide, but it wasn't at all. It wasn't at all. I can't remember the exact, but I think I blocked it from my memory. Except that was the general sense of it. I was feeling hopeless and desperate and blah, blah, blah, blah.

And I think it was like with the undertone of suicide, but it wasn't at all. It wasn't at all. I can't remember the exact, but I think I blocked it from my memory. Except that was the general sense of it. I was feeling hopeless and desperate and blah, blah, blah, blah.

Yeah, yeah, because she took it very seriously. And also my aunt, bless her, who did nothing but lie in bed and read, but read a lot. She happened to have just read a book on transsexuality. And she sent this to my mom. And for a couple of hours, she goes, don't you think that this might be what is the case? And I guess my mom thought, yes. So made an appointment with a psychologist.

Yeah, yeah, because she took it very seriously. And also my aunt, bless her, who did nothing but lie in bed and read, but read a lot. She happened to have just read a book on transsexuality. And she sent this to my mom. And for a couple of hours, she goes, don't you think that this might be what is the case? And I guess my mom thought, yes. So made an appointment with a psychologist.

And I started talking to her.

And I started talking to her.

It was changing, but it was just like it was pre-pubescent. And I can't remember how long I was in conversation with this psychologist, but she put me on to Delamar, who sadly has passed away.

It was changing, but it was just like it was pre-pubescent. And I can't remember how long I was in conversation with this psychologist, but she put me on to Delamar, who sadly has passed away.

So I went to see her. I didn't have a clue who she was. And she listened to my case. I think Louis Horace came into it as well. He's also just died. He was also... Yeah, yeah. He was the father of the whole gender team.

So I went to see her. I didn't have a clue who she was. And she listened to my case. I think Louis Horace came into it as well. He's also just died. He was also... Yeah, yeah. He was the father of the whole gender team.

Exactly, exactly. So they evaluated me and then they decided... that I would be a good candidate. No, well, I was the first to put on blockers.

Exactly, exactly. So they evaluated me and then they decided... that I would be a good candidate. No, well, I was the first to put on blockers.

Yes, that is my sense. Only because I was the first and because I was so convincing. Yeah. And I'm not sure if the conversation had come up that, well, normally what we do is when you're 16 or 17, because I think that was when they started putting you at the youngest age, you could put your hormones and I was like, no.

Yes, that is my sense. Only because I was the first and because I was so convincing. Yeah. And I'm not sure if the conversation had come up that, well, normally what we do is when you're 16 or 17, because I think that was when they started putting you at the youngest age, you could put your hormones and I was like, no.

i'm not doing it why can't we just but i think i probably said that why can't we just pause it now just let me be so yeah i just wanted to wake up and that's what i said i just want to wake up and i want to it had been that i was born a boy full stop so that my history was congruent with that narrative i didn't want to have to explain myself because that made me feel weak in hindsight it made me vulnerable and i my whole life i was not about being vulnerable

i'm not doing it why can't we just but i think i probably said that why can't we just pause it now just let me be so yeah i just wanted to wake up and that's what i said i just want to wake up and i want to it had been that i was born a boy full stop so that my history was congruent with that narrative i didn't want to have to explain myself because that made me feel weak in hindsight it made me vulnerable and i my whole life i was not about being vulnerable

So, yeah, in a nutshell, I just analyzed it. That's probably what it was. And so they took me seriously. And I think they said, well, this is such a bloody convincing case. Great idea to experiment with this child. My parents were behind it.

So, yeah, in a nutshell, I just analyzed it. That's probably what it was. And so they took me seriously. And I think they said, well, this is such a bloody convincing case. Great idea to experiment with this child. My parents were behind it.

No, I don't think I was aware that was the first.

No, I don't think I was aware that was the first.