FG (First Patient to Receive Puberty Blockers)

Up until about nine or ten, it was an assertion. Eleven. Up until then, I thought, oh, it'll still work out. One day I'll wake up, it'll be fine. And then as I hit 12, 13 and puberty started to set in, I started to get really worried because then I was also aware of the, hmm, this is probably not going to work out how I want it to be.

Up until about nine or ten, it was an assertion. Eleven. Up until then, I thought, oh, it'll still work out. One day I'll wake up, it'll be fine. And then as I hit 12, 13 and puberty started to set in, I started to get really worried because then I was also aware of the, hmm, this is probably not going to work out how I want it to be.

And my parents up until then had been pretty good, especially my mom. I was very close to my mom, which put a little strain on the relationship with my dad because he was also quite jealous. And I think he didn't really understand. So then we would often sit around the table and have massive arguments, which is also quite Italian. So it's very emotional.

And my parents up until then had been pretty good, especially my mom. I was very close to my mom, which put a little strain on the relationship with my dad because he was also quite jealous. And I think he didn't really understand. So then we would often sit around the table and have massive arguments, which is also quite Italian. So it's very emotional.

it wasn't until i was 11 or 12 and then i started to become really anxious which just i think translated to being even more aggressive like even more difficult um and demanding and opinionated and axes to grind and then were you angry yeah i was angry but like i said that made me you know at school i talked with my fists

it wasn't until i was 11 or 12 and then i started to become really anxious which just i think translated to being even more aggressive like even more difficult um and demanding and opinionated and axes to grind and then were you angry yeah i was angry but like i said that made me you know at school i talked with my fists

I also talk with my mouth because it's also very argumentative, but I wouldn't tolerate anything. And if anyone said anything to me that I didn't like, I'd smack them. But I would always smack people that were bigger than me.

I also talk with my mouth because it's also very argumentative, but I wouldn't tolerate anything. And if anyone said anything to me that I didn't like, I'd smack them. But I would always smack people that were bigger than me.

No, exactly, which wasn't very difficult because I was small anyway. But no, I was quite explosive.

No, exactly, which wasn't very difficult because I was small anyway. But no, I was quite explosive.

It did, well, it came up, but probably, and I don't know what happened behind my back. I don't care. But, you know, there was a, I met, when I was 12, I met a girl. She was in my class. And she was also a bit of a tomboy. And we became very close very quickly. And it was at that time that the gym lessons were separated to boys and girls.

It did, well, it came up, but probably, and I don't know what happened behind my back. I don't care. But, you know, there was a, I met, when I was 12, I met a girl. She was in my class. And she was also a bit of a tomboy. And we became very close very quickly. And it was at that time that the gym lessons were separated to boys and girls.

So the very first gym lesson where we had to do it, I was there with this person. And I felt such resistance. It felt wrong. I said, I'm not doing this. I'm not doing this. She said, no, I don't want to do it either. And so I went to the – I said, I want gym on the other side. And I went, okay. And ever since then, I always did gym with the boys. But so did she.

So the very first gym lesson where we had to do it, I was there with this person. And I felt such resistance. It felt wrong. I said, I'm not doing this. I'm not doing this. She said, no, I don't want to do it either. And so I went to the – I said, I want gym on the other side. And I went, okay. And ever since then, I always did gym with the boys. But so did she.

And at the time, we both decided that we were boys. And I was convinced that she was the same. And she just turned out to be quite a butch lesbian. But we didn't think anything of it. We didn't feel foolish about doing that. And so it became, I think half of the people were just confused at that point. They're like, what is this? What are they? Yeah.

And at the time, we both decided that we were boys. And I was convinced that she was the same. And she just turned out to be quite a butch lesbian. But we didn't think anything of it. We didn't feel foolish about doing that. And so it became, I think half of the people were just confused at that point. They're like, what is this? What are they? Yeah.

I was really worried about what was happening, what was going to happen, because I could see it around me. And I was... Puberty. Puberty, yeah. And that was something that I voiced to my parents in the usual prepubescent, adolescent, ridiculous, soppy way of writing poems. and leaving notes, hoping that they'd read them.

I was really worried about what was happening, what was going to happen, because I could see it around me. And I was... Puberty. Puberty, yeah. And that was something that I voiced to my parents in the usual prepubescent, adolescent, ridiculous, soppy way of writing poems. and leaving notes, hoping that they'd read them.

And then so my mum found one of these really pathetic poems, which clearly I'd left there. And then she addressed it and she... Do you remember kind of like what the poem said? It was along the lines of, you know, if I can just lay down my sword and blah, blah, blah. It was about battling this life and not being able to see a way out.

And then so my mum found one of these really pathetic poems, which clearly I'd left there. And then she addressed it and she... Do you remember kind of like what the poem said? It was along the lines of, you know, if I can just lay down my sword and blah, blah, blah. It was about battling this life and not being able to see a way out.