FG (First Patient to Receive Puberty Blockers)

No, exactly, which wasn't very difficult because I was small anyway. But no, I was quite explosive.

No, exactly, which wasn't very difficult because I was small anyway. But no, I was quite explosive.

It did, well, it came up, but probably, and I don't know what happened behind my back. I don't care. But, you know, there was a, I met, when I was 12, I met a girl. She was in my class. And she was also a bit of a tomboy. And we became very close very quickly. And it was at that time that the gym lessons were separated to boys and girls.

It did, well, it came up, but probably, and I don't know what happened behind my back. I don't care. But, you know, there was a, I met, when I was 12, I met a girl. She was in my class. And she was also a bit of a tomboy. And we became very close very quickly. And it was at that time that the gym lessons were separated to boys and girls.

So the very first gym lesson where we had to do it, I was there with this person. And I felt such resistance. It felt wrong. I said, I'm not doing this. I'm not doing this. She said, no, I don't want to do it either. And so I went to do it. I said, I want gym on the other side. And I went, okay. And ever since then, I always did gym with the boys. But so did she.

So the very first gym lesson where we had to do it, I was there with this person. And I felt such resistance. It felt wrong. I said, I'm not doing this. I'm not doing this. She said, no, I don't want to do it either. And so I went to do it. I said, I want gym on the other side. And I went, okay. And ever since then, I always did gym with the boys. But so did she.

And at the time, we both decided that we were boys. And I was convinced that she was the same. And she just turned out to be quite a butch lesbian. But we didn't think anything of it. We didn't feel foolish about doing that. And so it became, I think half of the people were just confused at that point. They're like, what is this? What are they? Yeah.

And at the time, we both decided that we were boys. And I was convinced that she was the same. And she just turned out to be quite a butch lesbian. But we didn't think anything of it. We didn't feel foolish about doing that. And so it became, I think half of the people were just confused at that point. They're like, what is this? What are they? Yeah.

I was really worried about what was happening, what was going to happen, because I could see it around me. And I was... Puberty. Puberty, yeah. And that was something that I voiced to my parents in the usual prepubescent, adolescent, ridiculous, soppy way of writing poems and leaving notes, hoping that they'd read them.

I was really worried about what was happening, what was going to happen, because I could see it around me. And I was... Puberty. Puberty, yeah. And that was something that I voiced to my parents in the usual prepubescent, adolescent, ridiculous, soppy way of writing poems and leaving notes, hoping that they'd read them.

And then so my mum found one of these really pathetic poems, which clearly I'd left there, And then she addressed it and she... Do you remember kind of like what the poem said? It was along the lines of, you know, if I can just lay down my sword and blah, blah, blah. It was about battling this life and not being able to see a way out.

And then so my mum found one of these really pathetic poems, which clearly I'd left there, And then she addressed it and she... Do you remember kind of like what the poem said? It was along the lines of, you know, if I can just lay down my sword and blah, blah, blah. It was about battling this life and not being able to see a way out.

And I think it was like with the undertone of suicide, but it wasn't at all. It wasn't at all. I can't remember the exact, but I think I blocked it from my memory. Except that was the general sense of it. I was feeling hopeless and desperate and blah, blah, blah, blah.

And I think it was like with the undertone of suicide, but it wasn't at all. It wasn't at all. I can't remember the exact, but I think I blocked it from my memory. Except that was the general sense of it. I was feeling hopeless and desperate and blah, blah, blah, blah.

react in the way that you wanted which is together yeah yeah because she took it very seriously and also my aunt bless her who did nothing but lie in bed and read but read a lot she happened to have just read a book on transsexuality and she sent this to my mum and for a couple of hours she goes don't you think that this might be what is the case and I guess my mum thought yes so made an appointment with a psychologist

react in the way that you wanted which is together yeah yeah because she took it very seriously and also my aunt bless her who did nothing but lie in bed and read but read a lot she happened to have just read a book on transsexuality and she sent this to my mum and for a couple of hours she goes don't you think that this might be what is the case and I guess my mum thought yes so made an appointment with a psychologist

And I started talking to her.

And I started talking to her.

It was changing, but it was just like it was pre-pubescent. And I can't remember how long I was in conversation with this psychologist, but she put me on to Delamar, who sadly has passed away.

It was changing, but it was just like it was pre-pubescent. And I can't remember how long I was in conversation with this psychologist, but she put me on to Delamar, who sadly has passed away.