FG (First Patient to Receive Puberty Blockers)

So I went to see her. I didn't have a clue who she was. And she listened to my case. I think Louis Hordens came into it as well, who's also just died. He was also... Yeah, yeah. He was the father of the whole gender team.

So I went to see her. I didn't have a clue who she was. And she listened to my case. I think Louis Hordens came into it as well, who's also just died. He was also... Yeah, yeah. He was the father of the whole gender team.

Exactly, exactly. So they evaluated me and then they decided... that I would be a good candidate. No, well, I was the first to put on blockers.

Exactly, exactly. So they evaluated me and then they decided... that I would be a good candidate. No, well, I was the first to put on blockers.

Yes, that is my sense. Only because I was the first and because I was so convincing. Yeah. And I'm not sure if the conversation had come up that, well, normally what we do is when you're 16 or 17, because I think that was when they started putting you at the youngest age, you could put your hormones. And I was like, no. I'm not doing it. Why can't we just, I think I probably said that.

Yes, that is my sense. Only because I was the first and because I was so convincing. Yeah. And I'm not sure if the conversation had come up that, well, normally what we do is when you're 16 or 17, because I think that was when they started putting you at the youngest age, you could put your hormones. And I was like, no. I'm not doing it. Why can't we just, I think I probably said that.

Why can't we just pause it now? Just let me be. So yeah, I just wanted to wake up. And that's what I said. I just want to wake up and I want to have been that I was born a boy, full stop, so that my history was congruent with that narrative. I didn't want to have to explain myself because that made me feel weak in hindsight. It made me vulnerable.

Why can't we just pause it now? Just let me be. So yeah, I just wanted to wake up. And that's what I said. I just want to wake up and I want to have been that I was born a boy, full stop, so that my history was congruent with that narrative. I didn't want to have to explain myself because that made me feel weak in hindsight. It made me vulnerable.

And I, my whole life, I was not about being vulnerable. So, yeah, in a nutshell, I just analyzed it. That's probably what it was. And so they took me seriously. And I think they said, well, this is such a bloody convincing case. Great idea to experiment with this child. My parents were behind it.

And I, my whole life, I was not about being vulnerable. So, yeah, in a nutshell, I just analyzed it. That's probably what it was. And so they took me seriously. And I think they said, well, this is such a bloody convincing case. Great idea to experiment with this child. My parents were behind it.

Yes. No, I don't think I was aware that was the first.

Yes. No, I don't think I was aware that was the first.

But I mean, it wasn't completely new because these hormones blockers were being given to kids that were entering precocious puberty and in the East Bloc countries for gymnasts, but we don't talk about that. So there is some kind of data there, right? Or at least clinical experience. Exactly.

But I mean, it wasn't completely new because these hormones blockers were being given to kids that were entering precocious puberty and in the East Bloc countries for gymnasts, but we don't talk about that. So there is some kind of data there, right? Or at least clinical experience. Exactly.

No, because there was an alternative.

No, because there was an alternative.

Yeah, it was like, otherwise I'm leaving. Leaving this world. Which I wasn't, but it was that kind of...

Yeah, it was like, otherwise I'm leaving. Leaving this world. Which I wasn't, but it was that kind of...

that feeling was there it was like there's no choice you know that we have to do something this is not okay i'm not doing this yeah i was like put my foot down yeah um no i could be very pig-headed yeah so no i'm not doing it no no no so uh puberty that was i mean it literally saved my life um so i feel indebted

that feeling was there it was like there's no choice you know that we have to do something this is not okay i'm not doing this yeah i was like put my foot down yeah um no i could be very pig-headed yeah so no i'm not doing it no no no so uh puberty that was i mean it literally saved my life um so i feel indebted