FG (First Patient to Receive Puberty Blockers)

Yeah, I do. And it hurt. Because you injected it into a muscle. And because I was also so body critical, I didn't want to inject into my bum, which is the much better option. So I had it done in my leg the first time and that hurt like a motherfucker. Yeah.

Yeah, I do. And it hurt. Because you injected it into a muscle. And because I was also so body critical, I didn't want to inject into my bum, which is the much better option. So I had it done in my leg the first time and that hurt like a motherfucker. Yeah.

No, yeah, no. No, I met her, I think I got into conversations with her when I was about 16.

No, yeah, no. No, I met her, I think I got into conversations with her when I was about 16.

I had to do a lot of psychometric and psychological testing anyway at various points in time. I remember doing it with Peggy. I filled in a lot of paperwork, a lot of questionnaires.

I had to do a lot of psychometric and psychological testing anyway at various points in time. I remember doing it with Peggy. I filled in a lot of paperwork, a lot of questionnaires.

And then I decided I didn't want to go on to them until I finished school. Okay. Because I didn't want to have to explain myself. Now I just, I'd frozen time. And if I went on to hormones, which is very paradoxical because on the one hand, all I wanted to do was go on a male hormones. I just didn't want to have to explain it to people.

And then I decided I didn't want to go on to them until I finished school. Okay. Because I didn't want to have to explain myself. Now I just, I'd frozen time. And if I went on to hormones, which is very paradoxical because on the one hand, all I wanted to do was go on a male hormones. I just didn't want to have to explain it to people.

Because again, it would make me vulnerable. And why do I have to explain myself to you? You mean nothing to me. Well, they did, but you know what I mean? It just puts you in a very vulnerable position. I'll never know how it would have been if I, if I'd said, Hello, well, this is what's going to happen. Stand up in class, like, out yourself. I don't want to do that. I never wanted to do that.

Because again, it would make me vulnerable. And why do I have to explain myself to you? You mean nothing to me. Well, they did, but you know what I mean? It just puts you in a very vulnerable position. I'll never know how it would have been if I, if I'd said, Hello, well, this is what's going to happen. Stand up in class, like, out yourself. I don't want to do that. I never wanted to do that.

So I chose not to. And maybe that's my own little hang-up, but that's just pretty much how I went through life.

So I chose not to. And maybe that's my own little hang-up, but that's just pretty much how I went through life.

think that that yeah it was a bit stressful to be fair because you know you have this like kind of underlying stress i stress with phones because you'd answer and you didn't want to be considered a woman because you had a high voice but at the same time so that's always uh that always stressed me out especially when i am as your voice started to change it just became difficult because well well how are they addressing you now so you're always thinking about those things plus toilets

think that that yeah it was a bit stressful to be fair because you know you have this like kind of underlying stress i stress with phones because you'd answer and you didn't want to be considered a woman because you had a high voice but at the same time so that's always uh that always stressed me out especially when i am as your voice started to change it just became difficult because well well how are they addressing you now so you're always thinking about those things plus toilets

I spent my whole time just sneaking in. I felt I didn't want people to point me out as, oh, that's somebody that's going to this. I just didn't want to be seen.

I spent my whole time just sneaking in. I felt I didn't want people to point me out as, oh, that's somebody that's going to this. I just didn't want to be seen.

But there is still that transition of old life, new life. Who am I going to run into? What do I have to say? Even at university, I ran into people that were from my school. And I remember the one thing I said, I met this guy and he was a year below me. And of course, he knew who I was. And he goes, oh, blah, blah, blah. And my voice is lower. And I went, by one thing, don't say she to me.

But there is still that transition of old life, new life. Who am I going to run into? What do I have to say? Even at university, I ran into people that were from my school. And I remember the one thing I said, I met this guy and he was a year below me. And of course, he knew who I was. And he goes, oh, blah, blah, blah. And my voice is lower. And I went, by one thing, don't say she to me.

And that was the only thing I said to him. And that was it. We never talked about it again. But there were a few situations with somebody else that was, it's amazing how small the world is, that some things got back to other people and they confronted me with it. And I just laughed it off and pretended that I, you know, even I made it ridiculous because I said, oh, what do you think?

And that was the only thing I said to him. And that was it. We never talked about it again. But there were a few situations with somebody else that was, it's amazing how small the world is, that some things got back to other people and they confronted me with it. And I just laughed it off and pretended that I, you know, even I made it ridiculous because I said, oh, what do you think?