Francesca Amber

it feels wasteful so this house is going to be an income making thing like it's not just going to be sat empty i'm not a fucking nigerian billionaire do you know what i mean like it is going to be a money-making thing it's going to be airbnb'd it's going to be rented out when i'm not using it but over the years it hopefully becomes a place that me and my daughters are able to use more and more and more and maybe we will end up living there full-time i don't know it gives me options which is so exciting because i'm an aquarium and i love options i love freedom but

I have had to allow myself to feel safe enough to have this, I think it's what Amanda Francis would call like an overflow, like an overflow, more than enough, an excess of stuff.

And one way that makes me feel safe with more, and this sounds crazy, but I either have to use everything I've got or take care of everything I've got.

So if in my current house, I've got a toy room filled with toys that have all cost lots of money and they're just broken or laying there not used and never charged or whatever.

Or there's like an expensive bike in the garage that no one's ever used.

Or there's like a room that's just full of stuff.

Or do you know what I mean?

There's like a bag of clothes that I keep meaning to return to the shop and I never bothered to do it.

Having all those things there make me feel quite disorganized and unsafe.

Like I can't even cope with the stuff that I've got.

And it's so weird.

But if I want to feel safe with more, all I do is I start to really take care of the stuff that I have.

So if anything needs to be sold, it will be sold.

If anything needs to be fixed, it will be fixed.

If anything needs to be sorted out and decluttered, it will be sorted out and decluttered.

And it's so wild.

But taking that physical action makes me feel more in control.

In my life and my manifestation and like, yeah, I can totally cope with more.

I'm totally a guardian, a good guardian of having either nice properties or nice things or whatever it might be.

And so anyway, God, sorry.