Francis Ngannou

No, no, I didn't want to keep fighting.

I don't want to keep doing anything because I fight.

Yeah, I find no reason of fighting.

I find no purpose of it because the reason why I was fighting... Was for family and to make a better life.

Was for security, for a better life.

Then I felt so powerless in front of the situation that I couldn't even do anything.

I'm like, okay, what's the point of fighting if I cannot even fight for my son?

You know, like...

What's the point?

What am I looking for?

Basically, like when I'm thinking of the last time that I saw him, it was me leaving the apartment, going to the elevator.

And then my brother had him and then he was crying to me, didn't want me to leave, like was coming to me.

But

I just know I'm going to be back.

I just know it's going to be okay.

You know, like those moments that you take for granted.

I'm like, I'm going to be back, you know.

And then when it happened, all of the sudden, I'm like, wow.

where was my where was i going you know you don't even know where you were going nothing even mattered i'm like i should have just sit there like just hang out you know can't beat yourself up about that though like that's one of those things that we have to like yeah you know but like seeing the last this last moment the last moment of him in your mind was this

The last time.