Gabriel Mizrahi

Sometimes it's delivery.

I try to keep up with the housecleaning, but she also demands my attention to the point that I have trouble keeping up with all of the basic chores while she does nothing to contribute.

I'm also starting to suspect that the amount of ordering out for food and purchasing things on Amazon is less about what she wants and more about making sure that I am drained of resources financially.

That would be a very inefficient way to do that.

I'm going to bankrupt you one DoorDash pad thai at a time.

They get you with the fees, you know?

But also, why would she want him to be ruined financially?

I'm not sure I understand.

This might say more about where he is with her than it does about her true intention.

That's my feeling.

She constantly demands that I sit with her and watch her videos, that I Kalulu with her Delulu.

I have no space to express my own wants and interests.

Even our going to sleep routine feels like a chore that is meant to leave me sleep deprived, as every time I get up to pee, that resets the routine in her eyes.

There are days when I don't even want to play my own single-player video game because she'll hijack it, literally take the controller from my hand and play it herself the way she wants to, and completely ignore any input I have about how I want my own character to develop or how I want the game to go.

Even when I'm in control, if she's not sufficiently distracted, she will tell me what choices to make in my own game and become angry if I make my own choices instead of hers.

Truly.

It's also interesting that I imagine video games are his escape hatch from all of this.

And I wonder if she senses that and wants to be part of it, wants to keep him close or not allow him to escape for a little bit.

I've tried resisting this and it causes a strain and adds to her anxiety until she eventually blows up at me.

And her explosion is toxic and destructive.