Gabriel Mizrahi

Yeah.

Regretting it, begging them to find a way to reverse it.

That's so intense.

Yeah.

I tried taking progesterone, but it was too late.

I prayed for Jesus to forgive me and to tell my baby I loved him and for forgiveness for my child.

This experience weighs heavily on my mind and my heart.

I'm wracked with guilt and regret and so upset I didn't just wait for the perfect results.

I'm still praying to Jesus every day for forgiveness for my mortal mistake.

And I want the message to go out about how we need to help women recognize the gift of life.

I'm so upset with myself for delaying beginning my family.

But I just know that I want a healthy child and body and mind with a comparable intellect to my husband and me.

As a Christian, this is something I'm struggling with.

It feels blasphemous to even think of such things.

And I can't discuss it with my inner circle or my community as this subject is considered taboo.

I still believe in Christ.

I love my faith.

and these thoughts and recent event are really affecting me.

Do you think I should try again, forego genetic testing and just be okay with whatever the outcome is?

Or do you think I should do genetic testing again to rule out abnormalities?