Gabriel Mizrahi

Okay.

And those visits are usually warm, but he always circles back to pushing for another family meeting.

These meetings are emotionally draining and always lead back to the same dysfunctional pattern.

I've had countless sleepless nights, severe anxiety, and I feel like I've been grieving a major loss for years.

It's almost like a death that never ends because the people are still here, but the relationships are gone.

And the reality is, I've essentially been iced out of this family for more than five years, simply because I expressed feeling hurt and like an outsider.

I'm not claiming I handled everything perfectly.

I don't think anyone did.

Sips tea.

Dude, Jordan, the fact that she is admitting that she might have not been perfect also goes a long way in suggesting that she's the reasonable party as we often talk about.

But anyway.

That tipped the scales for me.

I'm not claiming I handle everything perfectly.

I don't think anyone did, but I've apologized, reflected, and tried to repair things many times.

At this point, it feels like reconciliation requires me to permanently accept blame without any accountability or empathy on the other side.

I feel exhausted, and I honestly don't know what a healthy next step looks like anymore.

My husband firmly believes I should refuse any more meetings for the sake of my mental health, but the guilt is brutal.

Given this pattern and history, would you attend yet another meeting or finally step out of the cycle?

How do I release the guilt and sadness of losing the family closeness I always wanted and even moved across the country to build?

Are these even people worth continuing to pursue a relationship with?