Gareth

I knew that. That's what I'm trying to say. It's like hindsight I'm saying that. Oh, I knew I was going to... No, I didn't. I had no concept of it. How could I know I was going to do something I had no concept of? That's the first thing I'd say about putting that in context. But you're quite right. There was something... There was something profoundly different about that.

I knew that. That's what I'm trying to say. It's like hindsight I'm saying that. Oh, I knew I was going to... No, I didn't. I had no concept of it. How could I know I was going to do something I had no concept of? That's the first thing I'd say about putting that in context. But you're quite right. There was something... There was something profoundly different about that.

Hold on, now we're looking at vaginas and we're talking about, like, which one's yours? I mean, I know you're not having this conversation with no-one else. So, I mean, yeah, huge. Huge. That was huge.

Hold on, now we're looking at vaginas and we're talking about, like, which one's yours? I mean, I know you're not having this conversation with no-one else. So, I mean, yeah, huge. Huge. That was huge.

Yeah, I was fucking shocked. Of course I was shocked.

Yeah, I was fucking shocked. Of course I was shocked.

There was an Asian guy from Christ College that obviously lived in the vicinity. Otherwise, he wouldn't have walked down Hamilton Road like that.

There was an Asian guy from Christ College that obviously lived in the vicinity. Otherwise, he wouldn't have walked down Hamilton Road like that.

And we sat on the sofa in the front room and had a cup of tea.

And we sat on the sofa in the front room and had a cup of tea.

I spoke about, like, I don't know what we... Like, when I say nothing untoward, the whole fucking situation's untoward, right? You don't have to say something that's going to make this worse. But, yeah, so then I had my cup of tea and I left. And then the next day...

I spoke about, like, I don't know what we... Like, when I say nothing untoward, the whole fucking situation's untoward, right? You don't have to say something that's going to make this worse. But, yeah, so then I had my cup of tea and I left. And then the next day...

So I've gone up and used the toilet. She's come upstairs and I've said, which room's yours? And I said, I think that room's yours. I said, well, surely we can sit here and drink our tea. And she said, I'll go downstairs and get the tea. And she sat next to me on the bed like that.

So I've gone up and used the toilet. She's come upstairs and I've said, which room's yours? And I said, I think that room's yours. I said, well, surely we can sit here and drink our tea. And she said, I'll go downstairs and get the tea. And she sat next to me on the bed like that.

Both facing the wall, sort of like on a single bed. Sort of like sitting there like it was a sofa. And then, like, yeah.

Both facing the wall, sort of like on a single bed. Sort of like sitting there like it was a sofa. And then, like, yeah.

I don't know. We were close together. Our heads were close together. We were looking at each other and then, like, just started kissing.

I don't know. We were close together. Our heads were close together. We were looking at each other and then, like, just started kissing.

is just a feeling that I'd never had before in my life. I didn't understand how it felt. I couldn't recognise that I had actually had sex. And then we had this big discussion on whether or not I was a virgin because though she had sex with me, I didn't ejaculate in her. And so it was all this big debate on whether or not I was really still a virgin or I wasn't a virgin anymore.

is just a feeling that I'd never had before in my life. I didn't understand how it felt. I couldn't recognise that I had actually had sex. And then we had this big discussion on whether or not I was a virgin because though she had sex with me, I didn't ejaculate in her. And so it was all this big debate on whether or not I was really still a virgin or I wasn't a virgin anymore.