Gary Gulman

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582 appearances 1 recordings 1 series first heard May 2026 last heard 24 May

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This American Life · 676: Here’s Looking at You, Kid · 24 May 2026 podcast

Gary went into a full-blown depressive crisis.

Not eating when he should have been eating like a horse.

Sleeping all the time.

Crying.

The prevailing thing going on in my head is I want to kill myself.

I'm worthless.

I'm useless.

Everybody hates me.

And did you have this feeling of like, oh, well, I'm actually as strong as any of these guys.

You're stronger than most of them.

You're faster than most of them.

I should be as good.

Did you have a feeling of like, well, if I just psych myself up in the right way, I'm going to be able to do this?

Well, I just knew...

I knew who I was.

And the problem is I know who I am and I hate him.

I hate him.

He's so weak and he disappoints and he lets down.

And I just wanted to go back to the room and sleep and cry.

Yeah.

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