Gaz

It makes me feel funny even typing.

It's enough to change the life of myself and my family.

My ex-wife is the mother of my two kids.

She's an amazing woman, good to the bone.

We divorced six years ago.

Because I had an affair with my current partner.

I was in a low place in my life and I screwed up.

She was in incredible pain.

Like a saint, she allowed me to see our kids who mean the world to me.

Allowed our divorce to be as pain-free as possible despite the fact that I know she was hurting.

She's still close to my parents.

She's respectful to me even though she refuses to talk to my girlfriend.

She's actually the first person I phoned after I found out I won the lottery.

She was pleased for me.

Joked that I could take the kids on a round-the-world trip.

And that was that.

Nothing else.

As soon as I won, I knew I wanted to give her a significant amount.

She's the mother of my babies and I feel like this is in some small, tiny way I can show her that I'm not a complete screw-up.

She deserves to know that I care despite my mistakes.