Gemma Speck

So basically our brain is like, this is so intense.

We cannot feel the full intensity of this.

We can't feel this straight away.

We will like, we will not survive.

So let's like numb us up so we can get through this and we can, we can talk about it later.

This is similar to like when people escape burning buildings with like their legs broken or like crazy things like that.

The shock delays the pain, allowing you to behave in a life-preserving way.

And the thing is, is that this can last weeks, this can last months, sometimes it can last years.

You will move out of the shock phase when your brain finally thinks like, oh, they can handle it.

When they finally are like, okay, we have a little bit more

coping going on, which often sucks, right?

Because you kind of think that you've already lived through a little bit of it.

And then suddenly when you actually are coping a little bit better, your brain's like, okay, cool.

So we can give them the first dose now.

Stage two is when this is really happening.

So it's like the disbelief and the denial and also the first inching or tiny bit of pain.

You start crying, panicking, start to feel hurt.

There is still a sense though of like, it's going to be okay, right?

Like this is just a big prank.

This was just an accident.